Why?

sometimes don't you just wonder why life has the be the way it is? Why does it have to crush many of your dreams for that one day where you actually accomplish it? Why does it have to be the way it is? Lifes problem are our own. Why do we have Cancer and disease and birht defects? What is it trying to tell us? Why does it have to be the way it is? What are we accomplishing by sitting on our butts everday hoping that someone will ask them to hang out? Why do we have race? Why do we have language? Why do we have religion? Why do we have the things we do? Why does it have to be the way it is? Why do we lose contact with old friends? Why do we have this feeling call guilt? Why do we go through "stages" of life? Why are there so many different people? Why are there people like me, that can't just accept the fact that life is the way it is? Why does it have to be the way it is? Why is water needed in our bodies and not something else? Why do we find new diseases? Why are there people with devious minds? Why do we think so different, yet easily defined by our horoscopes? Why does it have to be the way it is? Why do people decieve the ones they love? Why is there no limit? Why do we have wars? Why do we pick the difficult things by "eeny-miney-moe", yet take forever to choose something simple? Why do I keep referring everything to everyone else? Why does it have to be the way it is? Why don't we kill off cliches? Why don't we get sick of cliches? Why do we need milk for our calcium? Why do cows produce our milk? Why are people so hypocritical someitmes? Why does it have to be the way it is? Why does the world seem so different every day; every year? How can someone surpass the human knowledge? Why do we have something/someone we think is "perfect"? Why is there anger? Why do people have to be so mean? Why is there drugs? Why does it have to be the way it is? Why are parents different then the others? Why are some people so smart? Why are there difficulties? Why do people learn at different rates? Why are there Introverts and Extroverts? Why is there poverty? Why is there starvation? Why is there greed? Why does it have to be the way it is? Why is the world divided into the way it is by an Ice Age? Why are there labels? Why is there politics? Why is there different skin colour? Why is there different eye colours? Why do animals have different eye colours than humans? Why is there money? Why does it have to be the way it is? Why do the universe have to revolve? Why does the earth have to rotate? Why do we invent things that are cancerous, yet good for ourselves? Why does it have to be the way it is?

I hate feeling so inadequate sometimes. I hate feeling so average; so normal... just like everyone else. I want to higher than them; than you. I know it's a pretty bold statement but it's true. I'm not conceited, it's just the truth. I want to surpass everyone, but I can't. I'm not good enough; I'm inadequate. It's a pretty stupid goal to have.. but it's my goal and you know what they say "You can do anything if you set your mind to it.". Guess what? I'm going to set my mind on it. It shall be accomplished, I don't care for how long, 1 minute.. 30 seconds.. heck even 10 seconds.. as long as I know that I surpassed everyone for just a moment would be a great feeling. I know, I need help.. but eh.

lqy.

I want to surpass the world. I want to leave the world with my name remembered. I want to chaneg the world one day. I refuse to believe that I'm not. I want my name in the lights or just the newspaper. I just want my 15 minutes of fame.

I want to go to the water point right now, and just escape from reality. I need a place to go to and think. Actually, I know of one near here.. but I think the water would be better.

I just need somewhere to scream. I need somewhere to be alone. I need to be somewhere not near here.

I need to have my space, my time.. to be on my own.

eh.

I'm just another emo fool. Trying to make through life. Hoping to surpass the ones around. I bow down to the one above. Try my best to be liked, yet I'm alone. I feel like I'm running around aimlessly.

The sorrow is surpassing me, it's greater than I am. I'm powerless. Helpless people surrounds, I walk pass. You were a vain attempt. I disappear, as you re-appear. I'm forgotten, used and throw away. I'm speaking from reality and not the heart.

lqy.

Humanity is going on a downward spiral. We're doom. We're all egotistic fools. Society is dead. I'm quite aware that I'm part of this society, this downward spiral. We all want peace, yet we can't even stop threatening someone for a second to think about others.

We all want our own space from other people, yet we can't stop thinking about ourselves. When we want our peace, we want someone to notice, we want someone to talk to us.. maybe, I should be talking for myself.. but I'm sure I'm not the only one. I admit, I'm a hypocrite for saying this, but it needs to be said.

I have low self-esteem, shoot me. I find my happy place by ranting on things about myself by saying it as people in general.

Love Me.

JS.