I need to escape from this mental world
I call my brain
It's need to be emptied out
I need to forget.
I need to redeem myself.
Stress is building up.
odd diseases amerge.

what the what? each time I try to make conversation/talk to him in person, he just doesn't talk back to me like he wants to. I just feel like I bug him or something. Something tells me that he knows I like him, and I really do hope that he does. But, he just acts weird in person, but on MSN we talk like no tomorrow. It's weird and it makes things more akward. Whatever. Blah, he talks to her all the time. I don't get it. I hate it. I feel so jealous sometimes. I just feel like I should be mad at her. I just wish that she'd get me involve in one of her and his conversations, but no. She doesn't care at all. screw them both.