Maybe I do miss who I use to be.
Maybe I miss my long hair, and my sassy attitude that went with it.
Maybe I miss my shy, mellow confidence.
Myabe I miss my intelligence
and my knowledge
and my easy motivation for things.

But now, I've lost it all.
I'm a different person , with a new hair cut.
I give up, too easily.
I breakdown with nonsense stuck in my head.
My confidense goes up and down
just like my moood.
I'm never the person they think I am
nobody ever knows.
I'm too critical
Not funny, steals everyone's lines
and make them my own.
I don't want a friend like that, nor should they.

I want a hold on life,
I want a friend who I can depend upon,
who I know wont leave me in a moment.
A friend who would help me,
give me advice, like I would do to them.
I want to take life into my own hands.
I want a future,
I want to know what it holds.
Or at least have an idea of what it'll be like.

I want to be a confident

it feels like I've messed it up
and I need to start new