open up.

I find the need to like, confess all on my secrets that I need to confess.
Exceppt I really don't have any.
I think.
Well, there is a few, but nahh.
hahhahhaaha.

oookay, maaybe I should. hahahha.
:|

not in any particular order...

I think I still like Tom, and John..

I obviously still like Marcus. But talking to him over msn makes me want to vomit. He like, just has this attitude, that one that's like "I don't care, but really I do.." JOOOOCK. annd I find that lame, annd what I use to really like about him before was that he was really sweet and caring and was really open about it, unlike most guys. <3.. buut now, since this "attitude" that like started up during the summer when he went away to camp.. ever since he's "developed" it, we've been drifting apart, annd I kind of hate it. We were so close before, we jsut talked about anything that was on our minds and what not, you know? We had this trust in each other, just something about it was comforting.. annd now, I feel as if I need to think twice to talk about what's on my mind, it amkes me feel like he doesn't care as much. I don't know. He's kind of making me mad. Maybe, I really don't like him as much as I would like too.

I feel like I want to become my own person, annd like be indepedent and stuff you know? I feel like I want to have seperate friends. Like outside of school friends and school friends, and I want to keep them seperate. I don't want any of them mixing, buut some of them are, and I hate it, to be honest. Liike, I just want to know that I have friends that have no idea how I am at school, like, as if my friends at school was going to ditch me one day, I would have another group of friends to turn too.

I always have this feeling that people are annoyed with me, annd I'm pretty sure it's right.

I always feel as if I need to prove myself to people.

I constantly find myself needing to surprise people about me.

I honestly LOOOOOOOOOOOOVE/ADORE heart to heart conversations and one-on-one bonding time.

I, honestly, stopped depending on people, err.. friends. I rather trust some stranger than my actual friend, stupid, eh? But it's true. I just, can't trust my friends, cauuse' they might tell someone else, and I just can't risk that. I have to know that, that someone I trust will NOT tell anyone else.

I'm easily manipulated, annd usually feel guilty saying "no" boldly.

I've always wanted to pee standing up. :)

I want to go skinny dipping.

Do something extreme that I'll regret, but not really.

Loose a ton of weight, like 20 pounds.

I secretly want to become really close with Daniel, Peter, annd maybe Dylan.

I secretly want to be on everyone's good side.

I really want to change the world one day. Well, not exactly THE WORLD, but maybe a part of it. Like their schooling system or something.

I also want to become really rich one day annd buy a ton of stuf with it.

I want to be sure taht I'm going to be financially secured for the rest of my life.

Becoming poor is secretly a fear that I fear the most or close too.

I don't mind being alone, being bored is what I can't handle.

I'm convinced that there's actually something wrong with me.

I'm convinced that I'm really immature annd dont' know how to "play around" without being immature. But, at the same time I'm overly mature for my age, or matured enough?

I'm convinced taht I'm really not funny.

okay, this is definitely not everything, but pretty darn cloose..HAHHA NOT. :)