umm, Devon makes me so mad. She's so overprotective, she's manipulative, she's controlling and she needs to accept the fact that Joce has other friends than her. She's needs to stop making Joce feel guilty, and Joce needs to stand up for herself.

ummmmmm I NEED TV TO NOT SUCK AND BE BETTTTER

I THINK I SHOULD BECOME AN ACTRESS SO I CAN STAND UP FOR MYSELF
AND MAKE TV CHANGE, THEY MAKE ME SOOOOOOOOO BLOODY MAD.


I make myself so bloody mad.

Guess what I also want? a boyfriend.
I feel so bloody lonely sometimes, I just wish I had some experience, you know?
I feel as if I need someone to be my confidant,
I just don't feel like I can trust anyone, I need some moral support,
or just support of any kind.
I need love, to put it bluntly.
I need to write a ballad about love and stuff,
and I feel so fake writing about it, cause' I've never experienced anything more than just a crush.
frickin' nuts.
I need to defeat guilt trips and stubborness
I need anger management of some sort.
I need someone who I can just go to and confide in,
I can't confide in my frineds,
for the risk of them telling other people
or for the risk of them thinking htat i"m a loser
that I"m stupid or something
and I don't want that
I need someone who will listen
and not think any less of me
maybe, that's why I trust people when I first meet them,
because they can't lose any respect for me, you know?
maybe that's why I have comittment problems?!
I DON'T KNOW
I NEED HELP
and why can't anyone tell me that.
I NEEEEED HONESTY,
I need blunt honesty,
and not just from my parents
I need to argue, and what not.

I need to let loose, and let everything out.
I CAN"T HOLD IT IN ANY LONGER.
:(
I need hellppppp,
I need a best friend.





My goal is to lose at least 10 pounds by the end of this school year.
Cause' I'm a fatty.