two more





PS.
STACY IS GETTING UP THERE ON MY CUTIE LIST
he told me he loved me,
annnnnnnd stuff, hahah.
:)

annnd Petere and Dylan are gettting friendlier.
:D helllllz yeah.

Three more entries,
well, uhh Marcus and Lisa started going out during the weekend,
its cute.
:)


TOMORROW, the two flex science 10 classes are going on a field trip
to none other than SCIENCE WORLD!!
hellllllz yeah,
except I have to wake up at 4:00am
cause' Tenzin is picking me up
annd then his dad has to drive his grandparents to the airport by 6:00am
annd then we have to be at the ferrie terminal by 6:30am
buut it's all worth it.







I SHOULD SLEEP NOW,
before I eat anymoreeeee
cause' I'm a fattttttttttty.
:(

Why don't we make truth last?
Time was yesturday's surprise.
Truth is today's gift
Judgement should not come from the look,
but the story behind it all.
Let go, and live on forever.
Forgive, forget and do not relate.
Let it go, it's gone.
Freedom, relief, and set your mind free.
Take no negativity.
Take your glory,
make the best of it.
False truths, and hatred
Stay on track, and set your mind straight.

okay, so yesturday, I talked to him FINALLLY.
he forgave me.
But I felt really bad when I said that I couldn't hagn out with him today,
cause I had/have no energy what-so-ever
I SAW PEOPLE NAKED LAST NIGHT,
it was so much fun.
But by the end of the night I NEEEEEEDED SLEEP
hahaha,

a bunch of people came over,
and only a few left.
:)

Dylan really missed out
and he's going to be angry at his parents for it
hahah.
-_-"
pooor kid.

Too bad Cody left,
but oh well, he was here for every other time.

He still hasn't called my back,
ooooooh well.
hahha.,

umm I NEEEEEEEEEEED LOTS OF SLEEP RIGHT NOW
I'm so bloooooody tired.
annd I need to study for an english test that I have to do tomorrow,
hopefully everyone wont be ready and she'll postpone the test to another day,
annndn also, I have to do Math homework and study for the math test on wednesday
I'm pretty sure that there's going to be a Science test some time this week.
WAIT NO, there can't be
cause WE'RE GOING TO SCIENCE WOOOORLD
FRICK YEAH, I'm so excited!
:)


hahahah.


I LOVE HOW LIFE SUCKS BIG TIME
THEN GOOD STUFF HAPPENS TO MAKE IT BETTER>
:)































GO KARMA,
You are love.

bah,
that little bugger isn't HOME!
I tired TWICE,
with a half an hour break.
I NEEEEEEEEEED to talk to him,
I need to stop talking to other people about it,
fuggg.

Gah, I feel so freaking bad about what I did yesturday
I totally screamed at Daniel,
annd I felt so guilty afterwards,
taht I just went to the bathroom and cried,
annd the worst part was,
was that they were over at my house
-_-
I don't even know how that happen.
It just happen so fast,
I was just being sarcastic one second
and the next I was screaming at him,
I don't even know how I can talk to him ever again,
I don't know how he could forgive me.


I feel like phoning him up right now,
and explain myself,
but nothing I can say, could change what happen.
I think that this type of thing needs to be done in person.

I not only embarassed myself,
I scared him
and I don't want him to be afraid of me,
I don't want him to be the reason that I lash out.
I feeeel so freaking angry at myself for doing sucha thing!
I REALLY NEED TO TALK TO HIM,
cause' it's really killing me that it happen, I think I'm going to call him right now!!!
:)

my dad makes me so madd sometimes,
that I just want to shoot someone,
preferably him.



Joce, Devon, Cody, Tenzin, Joe,
Dylan, Peter, Maery, Melissa,
Ali, Phoebe, Daniel (?), Jake, and Kas.
Are sleeping over, well, most likely sleeping over.
I have a hunch that Dylan, Kas, Daniel and Ali, might not be able to sleepover,
and I kind of wish that, that will happen.


cause' my dad only wants 10 to sleepover, cause' he's a buttface
and 4 more wont make a difference.

I'm so glad hes going away on monday.
I like it best when he does that,
the family is so much happier when he's gone

I honestly hate him, sometimes.
I hate saying hate,
cause' it's such a strong word,
but there's nothing else in the dictionary to describe my feelings for me.
I like need to do seomthing,
sdklfjsgsd
-_-"

he sucks at arguing
and the only reason why he "wins" is because he's the authorative figure in the house
and I say FUCK THAT.

umm I love Marcus.
:)


10 more til' 100
:D

umm Maery and Phoebe are like people who I really hate,
but at the same time, not.
Things that they do, makes me want to strangle them both.

Maery I hate, because she thinks she's more mature than everyone else,
just because she's had sex, done drugs, her mom died, smoked.. blahb lahb blah
and she always takes control and thinks she's all that,
but she just needs to suck a cock.
She's just too bossy sometimes, she always want things to go her way.

Phoebe is just too self-absorbed. She thinks she's higher than everyone else, she seems like she wants people to praise her, when she tells us things about herself, SHE NEEDS A COCK TO SUCK AS WELL.

SHE NEEDS TO TALK ABOUT SOMETHING ELSE BESIDES HERSELF AND POKEMON.
she likes doing things to people, but when people do it back to her, she wont let them.
SHE NEEDS TO GET OVER HERSELF, that selfish arrogant loser.
I don't like inviting her to sleepovers with a bunch of people cause' most of the time she's like "Don't do this,.. don't do that.. BLAHBLAHBLAH!!" /... SHUT Upp..




I like, want to shoot both of them wiht no regrets.

vain tears, and thy trust is gone.
Taken from thy heart, what hath thee done?
Thine own love is to be lovest with affection.
Thy shalt not takest control of one, but himself.
Oh wonderful envy, oh hateful love, wherefor art thou gone?
Sorrow strikest in thine own soul,
Where to love?
Where to be loved?
How shall one love another?
Why is such beauty of a emotion thrown around?
Faithful, honest trust don't be so devious.
I pray thee pardon my sin,
but I hath gone against thy's wishes.
I send forth my own hand,
And ask thou to takest it with the most care.
Sweet devine, simple purity, worthy love doth not lie.
Keep your strength.

where is everyone when I need them the most?!
THEY'RE NO WHERE IN SIGHT!


Ian came over tonight
and we practised for Sunday School worship
and we sucked!
so we decided to not lead the worship this Sunday.

I've never been so tired and out of it in my life for a whole DAY!!!!!!!!!

I feel like I disappointed Ian, a little.
Leading worship with Ian, is one big anxiety attack,
cause' he can't well with the guitar,
he kind of mumbles
annd I don't know the songs that well,
to not have him sing along with me
-_-"


I feel as if I've let him down,
and tracy and Lisa.


I hugged Marcus today,
he's such a cute hugger. <3
I love that guy.
Though, I havn't really had any serious conversations with him lately.
I miss the good ol' days,
though I feel as if I annoy him, a lot.
:(

ooh, I called Cody today,
he got all four of his wisdom teeths removed
on Tuesday, same day as I went in to get my cavities filled.


I need Joce, to talk to right now.



27th-28th, BIG SLEEPOVER.
I'm contemplating,
cause' I want to go to Brandy's school that day,
but I want to spend that day with my home dawgs,
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!!!!!!!!!! :(

REYNOLDS FIRST DANCE WAS TONIGHT!!
so much freaking FUNN!!

I hugged a whole bunch of people
liike every guy I knew!
annd I think I was kind of flirty/slutty tonight
annd I LOVED IT
:)


I danced with Jon and Daniel!
annd a bunch of girls,
annd I was going to dance with Stu,
but I couldn't find him. :(


I LOVED IT,
but I felt really sick halfway through
annd couldn't dance


I LOVE REYNOLDS DANCES,
so much fun,
and it's a good place to get to know people better

I LOOOVED IT
Jon and I definately got to know each other better!!
not like he felt me up or anything, but it was grand!
:)
I love that kid, hehe.

annd I was so happy that Daniel came to the dance,
David jsut kind of makes things awkward.

I love reynolds dances,
GOOD ADRENALINE RUSHES!!!!!
bayley made out with what's his face, BRAZILIAN GUY!
-_-"

I don' tknow how I can do gym tomorrow morning,
I'm so sore!!
I NEED SLEEP
annd I need to pass my science test!



GOOD NIGHT1

today was lucas's birthday
rory is going back to yale and got a job
and she and her mom are tight again
joce's birthday is tomorrow,
but I can't hang out with her after school
cause' she's having a birthday party with other people
I have to make her a card,

I cut Joe's hair,
well Jes and I both did,
buut she like (to be honest) sucked at it,
so I had to even it all out,
annd it LOOKS hot on him. :)
annd Mely dyed his hair dark brown,
but I bought him the dye,
which he has to pay me back
but he's a hottie,
and I need to upload the my pictures,
TOMORROW! cause' I"m too lazy to do it now, heh.

BRANDY CALLED ME WHILE I WAS IN WAL-MART
<3
I miss that girl, a lot.
I'm almost sure that I'm going to go visit her at Stelly's
on the 28th
cause' I have a pro-d day on that day,
annd she doesn't
buut I think I might be a having a big sleepover on the night before,
so, I'm not sure.


oh, I also BLEACHED AND DYED JES'S HAIR.
:)


I THINK I'M GOING TO CUT AND DYE PEOPLE'S HAIR, now
and when I get better,
I should start charging a bit,
or get people to donate a bit of money :)
like a dollar or something.
annd make them pay for the dye, hehe.

oor pay for at least half the dye,
if I have it already, but depending on how much of it they used.

but, I'm not totally sure if I want to charge people, though.
I hope Joe tells people that I cut his hair, and not the other Jes,
cause' I did most of the work.

ummm, well, Mely invited Kas to come with,
annnd I honestly, didn't want her there,
annd it's rude for people to invite other people
without consulting the person that incited them.
LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAME.
screw them.


makes me mad.
-_-"

NO MORNING BAND FOR JESSICA TOMORROW!!
SO HAPPY.
:D

gahh,
I have to write a sonnet by wednesday,
so not looking forward to it!
annd I need to do it with Hope!
I guess it'll be much easier that way
but I promised jeff first,
but I think I'm going to go with Hope instead of him
cause' he's always paging and stuff
annd he's not so good at stuff like that
-_-"
I'm such a bad friend.
:(
gaaah.


school went quite well,
I had a dentist appointment at 11:30
annd afterwards I came back to school about 12
annd I had a MAAJOR LISP
annd it was so hawt,
I hope I get a lisp some other day. :)
cauuse' I love talking with a lisp,
so much fun.
except everyone laughed at me,
though I must admit, I did like the attention, hehe.


after school
there was a MUSICAL CREW meeting, FINALLLY
:)

but then after that
Joce, Phoebe and Daniel came over for a game of Scattegories,
which I wooped their butts! :)
56 points in two rounds, haha.

but Phoebe and Daniel battled it out after the two rounds.
:)



Tomorrow,
Jes, Mely, and Joe are coming over after school for a hair-dying partyy.
:)
Joe is cutting most of his hair off, and dying it
annd Jes, wants to bleach her bangs with my bleach and dye it green with my bleach
whiiiich, I really don't want her to do, cauuse' I'm super selfish with stuff like that.
So, I'm going to get her to pay for half of the bleach tomorrow,
when we stop my shoppers
cause' I'm not sure if I have enough bleach for both of us anyways.
yeaaaaaaaaah.



ummmmmmmmmmmmm
I NEED TO PASS ENGLISH WITH A GOOOD GRADE
like an A.
annd I need to write a sonnet
annd I think someone should write one for me!

school tomorrow,
not looking forwar to it,
I want to avoid everyone.
I'm so stupid, I freak out about the stupidest things
but stupid things like that,
makes me think, if they really care about me or not
cause' it's not the first time they've done something like tha
and from me observing how they act with other people, friends.
they definitely care about me, less.

AND I SAY FUCK THAT.
:)



p.s. I cut my hair the other day,
I did it myself,
it looks great,
but I regret it plenty.
-_-"
it's short, too short.
I promised myself that I wouldn't cut it anymore,
and I did.
:(

Stacy gave me a hug yesturday,
he's a cutie.
:)


you know who's the biggest cutie in the world?!
Ryan Malcom,
he makes me want to smother him in hugs.
heh
:D


SPICE WORLD IS ON TV RIGHT NOW!!
:)

I NEED LOVE
i think i'm going to keep on telling myself that
until it works.
:)

well, today I realized that I don't have friends that cares about me, enough to wait for me at my locker, after I got change from my uniform.

The concert went well,
but afterwards, SUCKEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD my balls.
I went back to my locker after I got changed,
annd no one was there,
so I sat infront of my locker
and waitied for them, thinking that they were just getting out of class late,
buuut NO.
I waited for awhile,
then decided that they left without me (WHICH WAS RIGHT)
so then I went and walked around hoping that I'll find other people to hang out with
annd so, I found Graham, Alix and Dana, they were selling Reynolds Wear,
so they kind of had to hang out with me
:)
heheh
But when I was walking to my locker,
I saw Cody and Kim,
and they didn't even bother saying HI to me
or even wait for me or anything
:@
soooooo after a while I checked back at the locker again
to see if they've come back yet, but nope
so I walked back to where Graham and them were
but then I saw Maery,
and she told me to sit wiht her
cause' she thought I was walking around by myself (which was true)
but that was nice of her :)

like a minte or two after I sat down with maery,
they came,
I was like "WAY TO WAIT FOR ME!, geez"
then Joce said some stupid excuse and was like
"we thought you were in the band room, so we went there and looked for you"
woouldn't they have enough common sense that if I wasn't there
I'd be at my locker waiting for them?
I mean, who else do they think I hang out wiht?!
LOSERS.
I hate them so much sometimes.


I HATE FRIENDS,
honestly, if they care so much about me,
why can't they even do something simple like
wait for me at lunch?!
GAH, BLOODY HELL.
-_-"




I hate being mad at them,
but they honestly need to suck my cock.
SCREW THEM ALL.
poke gai.
that's what they are.
freaking whores.




I bet if it was someone like Devon,
tehy'd wait for her,
I HATE THAT.
pgah
asdadasfg;riotewehlrfgrejk'rwgbn
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I GET TO MISS GYM TOMORROW!!!!
:)

cause' Senior band is playing for the Remembrance Day assembly tomorrow
and I'm in it, :)

I think I have a cold,
but I refuse to believe it.
Like always.
But I like how my voice sounds with a cold.
:D

JOE GOT INTO A CAR ACCIDENT, gahh!!
scary.
but he's fine but a little beat up
-_-"

he's sucha cutie,
and I"m cutting his hair next tuesday.
annd most likely dying it.








I NEEEEEEEEEEED LOVE
or attention
:)

p.s.
I've been saying "peace" (with the peace sign) and "sup" instead of "good-bye" and "hello"
:)

SUPPPAH GANSTA OR WHAT.
:)
heh

I wish I had someone to hold me

I've been denying this for awhile now, but I'm really predictable, heh.
annd I realyl hate it haha.

umm for the past two weeks i've been really angry and pissy, and giving unfortunate people the cold shoulders BADLY.
But I don't know Chris kind of did deserves it.
-_-"
GAAAAAAAAAAAAH.

CODY NEEDS TO SUCK MY BALLS.
Everytime I try to talk to him
he always wonder off onto something else.
that's why I can't tell hiim anything.
-_-"
makes me so mad.
and he doesn't even notice
annd I've even told him about it before
and yet, he doesn't change, AT ALL
that loser.

so that whole 8 or 9 months thing,
I defnitely broke it
heh.
-_-"
ooh well.
now it starts all over again
:)
though, it's a bit tempting ahah
ooh well, Ill hold my urges.
:)


I GOT CUT FROM THE REMEBRANCE DAY CONCERT AT CITY HALL
I never get cut from anything.
-_-"

I got 84% on my math test that I did last friday
one of the highest marks in class,
mostly everyong to 70-something percent, or failed.
:)

buut, the thing we did in Math today makes me want to drop out of school, heh
-__-"

we had our first band concert of the school year tonight
I was in three ensambles,
annd now i'm pooped


annd JOE (trombone player.. also, in gr. 9) HE's SUCH A CUUUUUUUUUUTIE!
makes me want snuggle him hahaha
:)
I want to say hi to him in the halls but it's just awkward,
cauuse' Simon is there,
and he's awkward, gah.
I wish I wasn't so silly
Next time I see, I'll say hi to them BOTH.
I'll promise myself that,
exceppt I'm a pansy. hahahah
-_-"


last night I went to bed at 8-ish
buut before that I took a nap at 6-8-ish.
:)
annd now I don't feel like sleeping
-_-"



YOU KNOW WHO ELSE IS A CUTIE?!
DANIEL!
and Stacy,
and Peter,
and Dylan,
and Simon (when I'm not so weird around him),
annd Cody (when he's not being a butthead),
and Tenzin,
and Cordell,
and Kenny,
and that guy that I can't remeber his name,
and Joe W.,
and Joce,
and Ali,
and Bayley,
and Phoebe,
and Devon,
annd a bunch of other people that I can't think of right now.
:)

CHRIS HAMBLY AND DANIEL'S BROTHER ARE HOTTIES,
and others of course.
:)

I have to play in Thursday's Remembrance Day Assembly.
NERVE-WRECKING!!
-_-"


I LOVE READING SHAKESPEARE PLAYS OUT LOUD!!
:)
they're so fun!
I feel like skipping school and read all day,
not only shakespeare plays but books that I have

on Sunday I bought a biography on Janis Joplin,
buut I have yet to finish the book that I'm reading
and the biographyo n Anthony Kiedes.
gahh
hahaha the book I'm reading right now (Dark Dance)
it has MAJOR INCEST IN IT
grossy.
-_-"


I HAVN'T BEEN ON THE COMPUTER FOR THE PAST THREE DAYS OR SO
which is weiird.
:

i need sleep right now
I think I'm going to do requirements tomorrow morning
maybe lunch,
and after school
heheh.
-_-"
it's cause' I NEED TO BE PERFECT,
I think
-heheh.

I hope I do good on my Jazz band requirements,
I can't improvise for my LIFE!
annd I need to make up my own solo for a couple of them
annd even when I practise, I can't even come up with one
that I can keep in time with
WHICH IS LAMMME!!!
gah.


umm I hope I'm not mean to Chris on thursday.
I really hooooooooope
I think to avoid that happening
I'll have to bring my guitar
instead of my bass
he's the one that makes me go NO WHERE ON MY BASS
annd I hate him for that.
-_-"
:(
:@

ummm I hope we have morning band on Friday
so I get to see that cutie Joe (I think his last name starts with a "B", I can't remember)!
:)

I got to go to the hatchery with him last WEEK!
annd I sat in the backseat with him,
CUUTIE
I tried to make conversation with both him and Stacey (her mom= driver),
on the way to the car, and on the way to the hatchery
buut when we got ot the hatchery,
I kind of ignored them both for keiran
(OH YEAH KEIRAN, MARCUS, ROSS, AND GRAHAM ARE CUUTIES, too. :) )
buut I needed too
(oh yeah, LEVI IS A CUTIE AS WELL)
cause Keiran had no one ot talk too, I think
(ooh yeah, Baron is a cutie as well, heheh)
(mattaius was a cutie too, until he got perverted!)
I dont' know, maybe next time I should ignore anyone,
and try to get on everyone's good side.
:)


NICOLE WANNAMAKER IS A MAJOR CUTIE,
and same with paige lindsay.
:)

of course, Jodi is a hawtie,
natalie is a cutie as well,
annd same with kas,
and BUNCH OF OTHER PEOPLE
:D


I LOVE MARCUS,
heheheh
(L)

I wish I had someone to love me.

I've decided to devote most of my time on here.
:)
I wish I had someone to talk to
I want to share everything with Cody,
but it seems like I'm building some barriers or something,
I think I'm going to ask him to hang out with me somewhere else, other than my house.
Like beacon hill or something.
For the longest time now, I've been wanting to go to Beacon Hill, have a photo shoot,
or just hang or something.
It'd be amazing and just calming, you know?!

I love Cody as a friend, and for sure he's definitely one of my best friends,
but sometimes I get this feeling where he doesn't care,
or doesnt want to care, -___-"
I know, it's stupid to even think about it,
but that's the vibe that I get.

Brandy, I miss her so much, you would not believe it,
buut I can't bring myself to phone her,
I hate talking on the phone,
I wish she still went on MSN,
that totally ruined everything!
she's naive that way, hahah.
I should call her tonight.

ooh Joce, she's one of my best friends as well.
But I hate how she forgets things too easily.
For example, like if she said that I could go with her and co. to do something,
she would forget the next day,
so I would have to remind her.
it's kind of annoying



I had a math test today,
it was pretty easy, until the last question.
It took me about 10 mins. to think about it, and even after that,
I couldnt even answer it,
I took a guess, and hopefully I did well.

Well, I got let off of school early today cause' there was a black out
it was kind of interesting
I had morning band
and halfway through it the lights went out and I'm like "I CAN'T SEE"
but they kept of playing
hahah
thhen Mr Wilson opened up these blinds things
annd we had light
after awhile Mrs. Miller came in and told us that we could go home
so i took the bus to my transfer,
then walked home from there

I'm waiting for 11:30am so that I could decide if i'm going to go back or not.
cause' I have a math test to do since yesturday,
but since I went to the Hatchery I couldn't do it
annd I really don't want to wait another day

ooh wwelll.
I guess I will

HATCHERY SUCKED MY NON-EXISTENT BALLLLLLS!

We spent half an hour waiting for the guy to come out and welcome us, during that half an hour, we watched Coho swimming around in a tank. When the guy finally came out, we went in and he talked to us for a few mintues, then he made us watch a movie for liek 15 mins., after that he gutted two Chums and did exactly what the movie did (IN OTHER WORDS, THE MOVIE WAS USELESS :@), for the third Chum, Evan (grade nine) gutted it. Oh, when the guy gutted the first Chum, he cut off the liver and passed it around. The blood on my plastic gloves, looked like period blood, but it surely didn't smell like it.

After the gutting of the Chums, we went back in and we sorted dead salmon eggs from the living ones. That took forever. When we finished, he made a couple of us weigh the living salmon eggs to a specific weight then, put it back to the incubator.

When that was all done, he talked to us for a bit , then yet again, we watched a movie for the final 10 mins or so.

SO THE MORAL IS, MOVE YOUR CHAIR SO YOU CAN WATCH THE MOVIE WITHOUT STRAINING YOUR NECK!

Joe is coming over not this coming tuesday, but the next tuesday after that, and I'm going ot dye and cut it, also, Jes and Mely are coming on the same day, and I'm dying Jes's hair. :)
I think I should start my own business or something, haha, or maybe after awhile I should start charging a small price like 4 bucks or something. :)

This coming tuesday, I have a band concert! GAH. hahah.

hah, I've realized that I'm way too clingy for my own good. I should of realized this a LOOOOONG time ago, but eh. :)

boo, I want a boyfriend.

I'm going to the Fish Hatchery tomorrow. I'm leaving at lunch!
I get to chill with Kieran and Dan, supah cool or what?!



BUUURN ON RORY, taking advantage of her goody-two-shoe-ness.
HAH.

I have a math test tomorrow, I hope I do GOOOOD,
cauuse' I did really well on the worksheet,
and did pretty well on the review questions that I made for myself.
:)