I wish I had someone to hold me

I've been denying this for awhile now, but I'm really predictable, heh.
annd I realyl hate it haha.

umm for the past two weeks i've been really angry and pissy, and giving unfortunate people the cold shoulders BADLY.
But I don't know Chris kind of did deserves it.
-_-"
GAAAAAAAAAAAAH.

CODY NEEDS TO SUCK MY BALLS.
Everytime I try to talk to him
he always wonder off onto something else.
that's why I can't tell hiim anything.
-_-"
makes me so mad.
and he doesn't even notice
annd I've even told him about it before
and yet, he doesn't change, AT ALL
that loser.

so that whole 8 or 9 months thing,
I defnitely broke it
heh.
-_-"
ooh well.
now it starts all over again
:)
though, it's a bit tempting ahah
ooh well, Ill hold my urges.
:)


I GOT CUT FROM THE REMEBRANCE DAY CONCERT AT CITY HALL
I never get cut from anything.
-_-"

I got 84% on my math test that I did last friday
one of the highest marks in class,
mostly everyong to 70-something percent, or failed.
:)

buut, the thing we did in Math today makes me want to drop out of school, heh
-__-"

we had our first band concert of the school year tonight
I was in three ensambles,
annd now i'm pooped


annd JOE (trombone player.. also, in gr. 9) HE's SUCH A CUUUUUUUUUUTIE!
makes me want snuggle him hahaha
:)
I want to say hi to him in the halls but it's just awkward,
cauuse' Simon is there,
and he's awkward, gah.
I wish I wasn't so silly
Next time I see, I'll say hi to them BOTH.
I'll promise myself that,
exceppt I'm a pansy. hahahah
-_-"


last night I went to bed at 8-ish
buut before that I took a nap at 6-8-ish.
:)
annd now I don't feel like sleeping
-_-"



YOU KNOW WHO ELSE IS A CUTIE?!
DANIEL!
and Stacy,
and Peter,
and Dylan,
and Simon (when I'm not so weird around him),
annd Cody (when he's not being a butthead),
and Tenzin,
and Cordell,
and Kenny,
and that guy that I can't remeber his name,
and Joe W.,
and Joce,
and Ali,
and Bayley,
and Phoebe,
and Devon,
annd a bunch of other people that I can't think of right now.
:)

CHRIS HAMBLY AND DANIEL'S BROTHER ARE HOTTIES,
and others of course.
:)

I have to play in Thursday's Remembrance Day Assembly.
NERVE-WRECKING!!
-_-"


I LOVE READING SHAKESPEARE PLAYS OUT LOUD!!
:)
they're so fun!
I feel like skipping school and read all day,
not only shakespeare plays but books that I have

on Sunday I bought a biography on Janis Joplin,
buut I have yet to finish the book that I'm reading
and the biographyo n Anthony Kiedes.
gahh
hahaha the book I'm reading right now (Dark Dance)
it has MAJOR INCEST IN IT
grossy.
-_-"


I HAVN'T BEEN ON THE COMPUTER FOR THE PAST THREE DAYS OR SO
which is weiird.
:

i need sleep right now
I think I'm going to do requirements tomorrow morning
maybe lunch,
and after school
heheh.
-_-"
it's cause' I NEED TO BE PERFECT,
I think
-heheh.

I hope I do good on my Jazz band requirements,
I can't improvise for my LIFE!
annd I need to make up my own solo for a couple of them
annd even when I practise, I can't even come up with one
that I can keep in time with
WHICH IS LAMMME!!!
gah.


umm I hope I'm not mean to Chris on thursday.
I really hooooooooope
I think to avoid that happening
I'll have to bring my guitar
instead of my bass
he's the one that makes me go NO WHERE ON MY BASS
annd I hate him for that.
-_-"
:(
:@

ummm I hope we have morning band on Friday
so I get to see that cutie Joe (I think his last name starts with a "B", I can't remember)!
:)

I got to go to the hatchery with him last WEEK!
annd I sat in the backseat with him,
CUUTIE
I tried to make conversation with both him and Stacey (her mom= driver),
on the way to the car, and on the way to the hatchery
buut when we got ot the hatchery,
I kind of ignored them both for keiran
(OH YEAH KEIRAN, MARCUS, ROSS, AND GRAHAM ARE CUUTIES, too. :) )
buut I needed too
(oh yeah, LEVI IS A CUTIE AS WELL)
cause Keiran had no one ot talk too, I think
(ooh yeah, Baron is a cutie as well, heheh)
(mattaius was a cutie too, until he got perverted!)
I dont' know, maybe next time I should ignore anyone,
and try to get on everyone's good side.
:)


NICOLE WANNAMAKER IS A MAJOR CUTIE,
and same with paige lindsay.
:)

of course, Jodi is a hawtie,
natalie is a cutie as well,
annd same with kas,
and BUNCH OF OTHER PEOPLE
:D


I LOVE MARCUS,
heheheh
(L)