with blisters on my feet I still dance for you.


SO I'm Marcus's main dog.
pretty stellar.

I HATE BEING SECOND CHOICE,
LIKE WHAT THE HELL?!

I HATE YOU SOMETIMES MARCUS,
geeez.

Woah,
I don't know what's wrogn with me,
but I have MAJOR MOOD SWINGS.
:(

I hate them, they ruin me.

I also eat too freaking much.
:(
I should go to sleep now.
peace.

well, I like connecting with people intellectualy.
I hate gym this year,
I hate it so much,
and it's all because of Ms Knappet.
DAMN HER.
:(
She's a hard one, and she makes me want to skip gym every single class,
forever.
Well, until the end of the school year.
YUUUUUUUUP.

Tomorrow, we have a time run,
we have one like every two weeks or so,
and I HATE IT,
cause' I have to be a fatty and be like,
can't run,
or that I have some serious health issues,
and be like "I'M SICCCCCCK, and I cannot participate"
when really, I'm fine and I can participate.
:)

yeahh, ooh well, at least it'll get me out of gym. HEH.
that's all that matters to me.
:)


ooh man, I get itnense feelings for guys, way too easily.
Likkkke, if I find anything in common wiht a guy,
I'm like infactuated,
and it's stupid,
cause' that's silly.
haha.

Liiiike, I kind of like Dane, and he lives all the way in Ohio,
but he plans on moving to Seattle,
and visit me,
hopefully I'll lose some weight by then, :)

annd he says that I'm in his band,
and that's freaking me out,
annnd yeah.
:)




I ALSO LOVE MARCUS,
cause' he's a freaking cutie.
:) (L)

well, I wish that Reynolds had a dance every month,
it'd be so freaking cool,
and I'd love it so much!
:)

it'd be so coool.



yeah.

You Are a Visionary Soul

You are a curious person, always in a state of awareness. Connected to all things spiritual, you are very connect to your soul. You are wise and bright: able to reason and be reasonable. Occasionally, you get quite depressed and have dark feelings. You have great vision and can be very insightful. In fact, you are often profound in a way that surprises yourself. Visionary souls like you can be the best type of friend. You are intuitive, understanding, sympathetic, and a good healer. Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

Your Eyes Should Be Hazel

Your eyes reflect: Intellect and sensuality What's hidden behind your eyes: Subtle manipulation

What Color Should Your Eyes Be?

So Mr Cunningham thinks I'm going out with Jeff koster.
:(



GAH, yesturday was like the WORST DAY so far.
:(

I had worked on my planning project the night before, until 12 in the morning.
then yesturday morning I had it in my hand to put in my backpack,
tbut then when I was at school I had realized that I forgot it at home.

WHAT A DUMBASS I AM!!
DAMNIT, was my intial reaction.

I felt like such a dumbass cause' I did all that work,
all for nothing.
I felt so stupid.
So I just ended up tearing up,
and then went to the bathroom and cried.
-_-"
I HATE DOING THAT,
especially during class.

THEN in english,
Karen asked us to take out the quotations for TKAM
and so I searched and searched and searched for it
BUT REALIZED THAT I HAD LEFT IT AT HOME,
friggin' idiot.

Then Jeff for the spur of the moment laughed at me for leaving my project at home.
And I had just gotten over it all at lunch time
that was lame,
so he just made me feel bad,
and I started to tear up again,
and then Ryan comes over to me and starts talking to me
and I was like "CCCRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAP"
so for the first few moments while he was talking to me,
I didn't look at him,
so I thought hta tI was being too mean,
so I ended up looking at him
and I was like "GOD, I'm an idiot"


I CRY OVER THE STUPIDEST THINGS.


soo then, I talked to Karen about my missing quotations,
and she's like just bring me a note about it all and blah blah blah
so then afterwards when I was just going to sit down she was like "is that okay?"
and I wa sliike "yeah" then I started tearing up again,
and she was like "no, everything's not okay"
and then I asked to go to the bathroom.
when I got out the door,
GUESS WHO WALKS BY?!!?
STACY.
Damn.
So he stops and was like "What's wrong jess?"
"Is everything okay?"
"Are you alright?"
I was thinking to myself "I Don't want to talk to you right now Stacy"
but I took a few moment
and then replied with a really GROSSSSSSSSSSS "yup"
ahahaha.
-_-"
so then I went to the bathroom and cried my head off.
hahaha.


I'm a lame ass.
:)





but on the brighter side,
that night went hella better,
I went to Joce's house with Maery.



TOnight, Richard called me it was cute,
he called me to tell me about his problems.
:)
and about the Teens worship group.
I totally agreed with all of his problems with it.,

Lisa, Darin, and Tracy all just made desicions about it and just told us what to do.
It was lame.
caus'e they should of asked us for our imputs.
BUT THEY DIDN'T
which is friggin' lame.

They never asks us for our opinions about things like that.
THey always jsut tells us what to do.
I HATE THAT.

and if you try to leave or anything
they be like "WHY? balh blah blah blah God, blahb albha blahb why?"
and s on and so forht.


it's stupid.













whatever.


Today I had SOO much school
I was there at 7:30am-5:00pm then I had to go back, 6:30pm-9:30pm

so Mike Koster thinks that I'm going out with Jeff, I'm quite fine with it, ahah.
:)

Let's play pretend and make up the past again.
Stride to the success that we wanted
Think first, plan out the end, and make it happen.

Paint ourselves a new world.
With colours we would never imagine.
Acrylic paint, lose your mind, cause' we're here.
You can't even provoke the images we want to see.

Sun so bright, show us the light.
Show us our path, our way to forever.

I don't know what to tell you,
I don't know what to say.
My love is ambidextric, and you know it babe.

We only get so long, but I'll spend a majority of it waiting for you.
I know you've heard it before,
I know you know.

Maybe I'll understand it someday,
but for now I'll flip through my deck of cards,
until I find my King of Hearts again.

WELL, it's a new year,
and I started it off quite weird, it's not bad, just weird.

I started smoking,
well smoking q-tips,
it's not that it gets me high or anything, but I just like seeing smoke come out of my mouth, y'know?
I made myself quit before I get addicted.
I skipped a class for the first time during school time, gym and it was with Joce.
We were feeling really ill,
so we went for a nice walk around Lake Hill area.
I aslo skipped Senior band too.
I didn't hand in my Mockingbird journal stuff on time.

TOMORROW, I wish I'm going to skip, cause' I have to do a time-run, which I never do anyways,
cause' they're SO LAME.
so HOPEFULLY maery will walk with me like usual!!
they're give REALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLY bad anxiety!!
:(
I'm like freaking out about it right now,
actually since band,
cause' that's when I found out that I had to do it.
:(

I LOVE MARCUS, but he's a jerk.
I THINK HE'S GOING TO DROP THE BAND.
I don't think I'd mind if he weren't ditching me for dylan, cause' I'm hella better,
actually I'm not, but he kept telling me that I'm good, and stuff,
SO WHY WOULD HE?!
fucking lame.
:(

At least have the guts to tell me!
instead of making excuse like "Oh, I"m going to be too busy"
and shit.
geez.
:(


FOOOK YOU MARCUS.






I wish that he would ask me out.
I really do, he's such a hottie,
and I wish I had the nerves to
tell him.
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
oh wel..
I'll put on my sex appeal some how,
hahahhahaahhahahhahahah
I'm a fucking cracker.
geeez.




I CANT WAIT TILL MY BIRTHDAY
MONROE PIERCING HERE I COME!!
hahahha.
annnd DRIVES LICSENSE.
hellllz yeah.
this is going ot be a good year,
well I doubt it,
but still!!
:)
hehehhee






PEACE DAWG.