I can still feel the imprint of your hand in mine.
Faded faces still in my memory,
last words stinging clear.
Motivation to keep on living, to see you another day.

Oh God, I have an inadequately amount of homework for socials. And I have two tests coming up within a weeks time, then the monday after this coming one I have another test, and that one is going to be worth 50% of my mark. I can't handle it. I wish I had my life together. I wish I was more organize.

I wish I was Ali.

Next year, I'm going to need to be organize to hold up a life. Cause' I'm going to have so many courses.

and so many outside the timetable course.
and Journalism is going to be one of those courses,
and that's going to take up a hell of a lot of time.
time that I'm not sure how I'm going to get back.
but hopefully it'll be worth it.
I really wished that I had a spare next year.
I kind of regret taking art this year,
cause' I could of taken a grade 11 course. -_-"

fucccccccck.
Oh well, I will have my life organize by then end of this year, I promise, I promise, I promise.

it's pretty stupid,
my parents probably think that I'm fucking deaf or something,
cause' I always "can't hear" them.
Actually, to be honest, I choose "not to hear them"
or at least pretend that I can't.
they're fucking annoying little mofo's
it's like every year I'm just getting sick of them. I can't stand them.
Them and their nagging.
They don't know how to be parents.
They don't know how to get love.
It's fucking insane.
I hate them so much sometimes.

I got 78 on english prov.
73 on science prov.


well, I'm back from the band trip.
I don't want to go back to the normal life.
I don't want the trip to be over, but everything must come to and end at a one point or another.


fuck bayley.
and her constant flirting.
everytime I think I'm over marcus, he always reminds me of reasons why I liked him.
fuck him too.



shit, I have a lot of homework to do. It's pretty much overwhealming.
I hate my procrastinating ways.


I had a lot of fun on the sr band trip.
I bonded with Lisa a lot, and we're a lot a like.
I'm glad we became closer.
It's good to have someone there taht understands you,
and just have the same opinion as me.


she's cool.

I'm definitely going to try and go to more parties and concert. and do my hoemwork.
cause' I'm a fucking whore like that.


I hate the normal life that I live. I hate the constant nagging. I hate homeowkr, and worthless shit that I have to sit and learn about.

I need to organize mysel,f better.
I wish I was ali, she lives it.

fuck life and the hard shit.

so I pretty much suck at living life.
I suck at being a nice person.
I suck at being a daughter.
I suck at being a friend.
I suck at being a student.
I suck at being a human being.

I hate my socials class.
I want to drop out, and find myself a new one.
It's retarded.
I hate schlappner.
she called me irresonsible, and that I should take iiniative, and fuck all.

FUCKING RIGHT, shoot schlappner.

I think I'm going to fail socials if I keep doing what I'm doing.

SCHLAPNAZI is what she should be called.


FUCK HER.
and her insnae amount of homework.

I HAVE A LIFE.
obviously she doesn't.













gah.
life is just overwhelming. I can't handle evertything all at once.
It's p[retty much insane.


I'm pretty much a fatty, and should stop eating.
:)





I can't wait for the band trip.
The only thing wrong with it is that I leave right after school on thursday, so that means I only get to see my mom in the morning and then i'm gone.
pretty depressing.
I don't even get to say good-bye right when I leave for the bus.
-_-"
My mom is the only one parent whenever I get mad at her, I still love her.
ym dad is just on my nerves all the time.

my brotehr and I love different parents. He loves my dad, and I love my mom.
that's the only thing that I would hate if my parents got a divorce- that I'll be away from my brother. other than that I'm all for it, hahah. just kidding.

but it w2ouldn't be liek I'll be all devestated or anything.















































fuck relatives and asian culture.