GAR
GAR
GAR
GAR
GAR
GAR
SUICIDE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
GARRRR.

dance on the mountain side,
make love to the sound of wind.
cry with circus clowns,
laugh with mimes.
confess to wine glasses,
disagree with priests.
sing in art musuems,
shout to the wild.
Ride the zephyr until that one day.
Stay until the leaves turn green again.

You call yourself glamourous with 5 inches of cover up on your face
you call yourself flawless with pimples like cauliflower
Innocent isn't a make-up style it's the way of life.
Imperfections can't be hidden with foundation.
It'll shine through.
How can you call yourself real when that isn't even your hair.
This picture perfect babe that you've crteated for us to see
To be envious of.
This picture perfect babe is nothing but a flaw.
THis picture perfect babe is suffering from disease you'd never imagined.
She'll dance but she wouldn't move.
She'll talk with words of wisdom but misunderstand the point.
She'll destroy families,
rip hearts out,
steal attention,
do all with a snap of the finger.





I feel I need to do some counselling or somethingl.

I saw Dead Poet's Society the play tonight at my school. But it wasn't a school production. It was some drama class, Amelia , Joanna, and Matt (jocelyne's family friend) was in it. It was really good.

it makes me want to watch the movie again.

Carpe Diem, should be my new slogan from now on. Sieze the day.

so waht's happen since I last wrote?

Well, I never went to go see my great-aunt. That weekend was pretty wild. But this past weekend was more hectic.

LAST LAST WEEKEND WE GOT THE CHILI PEPPER'S TICKETS!!!! SEPT 14TH IS GOING TO BE THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE!!!!!! :D

Friday:
I sat around all day long. For dinner we went out cause' it was my mom's birthday. Then we went to Sears becasue my dad wanted to exchange his glasses. Afterwards we came home and had cake.

Saturday:
I had worship practise in the morning. Then hung out with Joce and Daniel at thetis lake. We hiked for about 45 mins looking for some "special" spot that Daniel wanted to go to. Took us 45 mins because he didn't know where exactly it was. -_-" . Then we jumped off a tiny cliff and the water was cold. Then we swam to the otherside which wasn't that far. Then we swam to the middle and found a rock plateu thing. :) That was pretty coool. I hadn't swam for so long. It brought back memories, and truth be told I enjoyed it a lot. I really like swimming, like with the stroking of the arms, peddling of my legs, and with the mechanics of all that MOVEMENT happens. such joy. After that we dropped them off, then my family and I went out for dinner with some relatives that came over from Vancouver, we were celebrating my grandmother's belated birthday. We went to Uncle steven's house afterwards to have some cake. :)

Sunday:
went to church. Went to Daniel's house to play some stickball with him and Joce. Though it didn't turn out so well cause' there was only three of us. We stopped after a bit. Then we went bacvk to Daniel's house and played Trivial Pursuit where Joce and I pounded his ass. :) For dinner, my famkily and I went to my grandmother's and uncle's house. Around 6:30pm I went to Mayfair for a dress rehersal for Marching Band but since it was pouring rain it was cancelled.

Monday:
PARADE DAY. That's pretty much it. Oh yeah it was pouring rain. And we WON!! We kicked Lambrick's ass. We won best victoria band and bext Canadian band or something liek that. :D






oh man I really like Cam. And Nick F? and Andrew?

summerschool. I got accepted, so it's official I'm going.


EUROPE OR PHOENIX/MEXICO?

eh peace

my birthday was on monday
that went pretty darn good.
:)
Dan's back.
I had my locker decorated by pretty cool peeps
:)

I want to lose 5 pounds
hopefully 15 by the end of the year.
I want to start a running program or something.

Where did we go?
how did I let it be this way?
the moment arisen
faded with the horizon
Don't wanna be gone
don't wanna lead on

well, my parents want me to not go to a worship practise to go see my great aunt cause' she's dying. Let's see go visit someone who's dying and be tramatized for the rest of my life, or go and praise God and be happy?
Somehow I like the second option. I try to avoid depressing situations like that.


Up in heaven,
starin' down.
reach your hands and help me out.
Look up, and see your smilin' face.
Wish I could have said good bye
Up in the clouds,
floating oh so high.
the moment arisen
faded with the horizon.
Smilin', no more sufferin'.
Remorse.
Tears of happiness
streams down our faces

tempted temptations
just trying to find you .

looking for that place
searching for that face

I'm so sore. We played stick ball yesturday. It was Joce, Phoebe, Kim and I versus Daniel, Simon, Anthony and Kyle G. Anthony was tackling me most of the time because I was the strongest player on my team. -_-" My sides hurts a lot from him prying me off one of their guys. And probably from Kyle attacking my sides trying to tickle, preatty much didn't work. haha. Oh well, pretty much the best game of stickball I've ever played.

sunsets setting faces letting
collect memories of yesturday,

soft dream surprises
no time for compromising.

it's been a while eh?

well, MY computer has been broken for the past month or so,
and has been in the shop getting repaired.

Recently my cellphone has broke down also, what a coincidence.

and today I smoked my first cigerette,
well it was like half a cigerette.
I foudn it on the sidewalk,
how safe eh?

well I set out to find someone that I could buy a smoke off of,
but I didn't find anyone so I just found one and smoked it at panama flats.

yeaah.

my birthday is on MONDAY!!
SWEET SIXTEEN, hells yeah!
:)
oh man, I"m having a big bash,
it's a combined birthday party with Joe and Melissa as well.
cause' their birthday is on the 3rd and 5th, and I'm on the 8th.
:)

it's going to be so much fun.
and I think some peoplea re thinking of bringing some alcohol,
and my dad just had a talk with me like an hour ago about people bringing drugs and what not.
-_-"
it's silly cause' I've had these types of parties before,
and he didn't mention about it,
and now he does.
-_-"
weird.