80% ON MY MATH PROVINICIAL HELLS YEAH!!!

laughing will only bite you in the ass

mm the smell of failure is in the air.

I'm getting 75.2% now. but I think it's plummeted since. I BOMBED the test we did today, :(. and I studied well tonight for tomorrow's final.
I'm just hoping that I'll pass the course with 68% that's all.
But it WOULD be nice if I pass with 73%. but good luck on doing that, HAH.

-_-"

I definitely havn't been keeping this updated since summer school has started.

BUT TOMORROW IS THE LAST DAY! FUCK YEAH.
I'm so glad. If I do it next year, I'm definitely going to just do Math, haha. Or maybe English. :)
Not CHEMISTRY. cause' I fucking suck at understand all the words.
YE YEAH.

But we still have to go back on Friday to get our report cards.
but I think after report cards, I'm going to head over to Tillicum mall and apply at Winners,
and drop off my resume and be like BITCH PLEASE, hire me I know Kayla Quan. OH YEAH.

I just gotta print off my resume now,
maybe i should first edit it, and then send it to kayla and be like is this good enough?
and she's be like BITCH PLEASE, fix it. ye yeah.

I'm just glad it's over with, and now my life is just starting, well at least my summer life. :)
FUCK F UFCKFUCKFUCKFUCK YEAHHHHH.

oh god, what if I failed the test today?? shit shit shit shit. I really hope I didn't,
shit shit fuck fuck,
:(
GAGDJKSEDASJKLDAJSKLHDJKHSAJKLSAD
daskdjasldajkd fuck.
I studied, but when I went into the test I forgot shit all. FUCK. I guessed on ALL of the questions, well maybe except for the first few, so hopefully I got those. I better have copied charles answers right.
-_-"

well I talked ot some people, and they suck at Chemistry also, which makes me feel so much better. And I looked at the marks and I'm not at the loweest mark in the class, THANK GOD. :)

YAAYAYAYYAYAYAYYA. hopefully I do well on the exam tomorrow. I want to get at least 68%, that's all I hope for in this course, is 68%. :) Nothing more. I havn't taken science since january, I'm surprise I even remeber this much. I think I might take Chemistry 12 during this coming school year, just so I can get it over with.
I don't know. I think it'll be for the best though. :)


on the brighter side of thigns, my hair is getting longer. :D:D:D::D:D:D:D


peaceeeee bitches







I don't want to fail, fuck failure. fuck me. -_-" shit motherfucker.

I'm getting 76.2% right now, FUCK YEAH.
:)



TO THE FEW THAT CARED AND TO THE FEW THAT MATTERS:
thank-you. Though, I can't trust any of you, ever.
:)
You guys never cared enough, never acted like you really were my BESTFRIENDS. Never invited me to anything cause' I don't do drugs or drink. FUCK YOU. Stuff like that shouldn't matter, you should just invite me anyways. Thanks. Thanks for "caring" and thanks for "being there".

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK.

I'm getting 72.5% so techinically 73% I'm just BARELY getting a B.
FUCK FUCK FUCK. I NNEED to do better, I need to get at least 80% on every test from now on, and same with worksheets, which means I'll just copy off of Dani for the rest of the time. fuck sake. I'm A FAILURE.
I need to come out of the course with at least 73%
soo if I fail the exam and want to come out of the course with 73% I would need to get over 100% in the course itself. -_-"
I'M SO SCREWED!!!!!!!!!!!!
I need to buckle down and do better!!!

but I'm just not that committed in it.
and I need to take it more serious,
but I guess I'm not
I just can't cncentrate.
I can't pay attention and learn the material, it just seems so foreign to me.

And I almost failed the test today!
I got 53% and it brought me down to 72.5%
I just barely passed it,
I did the worst on that test. 20/38.

I hate how stupid I AM.
I'm such a failure,
I can't even pass a course that's suppose to be easy. I'm so stupid.
:@
as long as I get 73% as my final mark, I'm happy.










I WANT THIS TO BE OVER AND DONE WITH RIGHT NOW,.
I CAN'T HANDLE THE STRESS AND THE EARLY MORNING WAKINGS.
:(

if you can read this and understand, let me love you.

racecars screeching to finish, burst with enlightment. Stopping, then starting again without a train of thought and a sense of direction. Sisterhood, non-existence. Passions gone to a hault, and there's no stopping. Kings and Queen's inbred, and royal love. Skins meet like there's no tomorrow, without is not an option. Releasing the air of compassion, reaching for the healing. Grab endearment, and giver. Foreshadows are for the insecure. Self esteem has nothing to do with it. My sweet valentine stiked with resentment.
















































































FOCK.

L - A - S - T
01. Last Cigarette: today
02. Last kiss: can't remmeber
03. Last Cry: today, kind of
04. Last Library Book Checked Out: does it count if it's my chemistry book?
05. Last Movie Seen In Theater: da vinci code?
06. Last Book Read: a million little pieces
07. Last Cuss Word Uttered: fuck
08. Last Beverage Drank: h20
09. Last Food Consumed?: cookie
11. Last TV Show Watched: one on one
12. Last Time Showered: yesturday
13. Last Shoes Worn: my welfare one
15. Last Soda Drank: root beer?
16. Last Thing Written: root beer?
17. Last Words Spoken: can't remember.
18. Last Annoyance: daniel, and or my mom
19. Last Time Scolded Someone: today, at Daniel for being an idiot
20. Last Web Site Visited: nexopia.

B - O - D - Y:
01. Piercings: ears
02. Tattoos: pen tattoos for now
03. Height: 5'5
04. Shoe size: 8.5-10 women, and 8 or 9 guys?
05. Hair color: black, or at least thats what it says on my liscence. :)
06. eye color: brown

L A S T . . .
01. Movie you rented: can't remember
03. Song you listened to: don't know the name, it was on hte radio and I zoned out for half of it.
04. Song that was stuck in your head?: Gold Lion- Yeah Yeah Yeahs
05. CD you bought: can't remember
06. Person that's called you: branddy
10. Person you were thinking of: poonie, and brandy.
11. Friend you made mad: probably Daniel.

T R U E O R F A L S E . . .
01. You have a crush on someone: true-ish
2. You wish you could live somewhere else: true
03. Think about suicide: false
04. You believe in a God: true-ish
05. You want more Piercings: true
06. You drink/have drunk: true
07. You do/did drugs: false
08. You smoke/have smoked: true
09. You like cleaning: true
10. You like roller coasters: true
11. You write in cursive: false

F O R *O R * A G A I N S T...
01. Long distance relationship: Against
02. Teenage smoking: give'r
03. Doing drugs: eh
04. Driving drunk: against

H A V E*Y O U
01. Ever cried over the opposite sex: yeah
02. Ever lied to someone: yeah
03. Ever been in a fist fight: yeah
04. Ever been arrested: no

RANDOM...
01. Who is your best friend: i have a couple
02. Shoes do you wear: my welfare ones, converse, and my flip onnns.
03. Are you scared of love: I don' tknow, no.
04. What are your favorite bands? red hot chilli peppers, and belle & sebastian

NUMBER..
01. Of times you have been in love? 0
02. Of times you have had your heart broken? 0
03. Of hearts you have broken? 0
04. Of drugs taken? 0
05. Of people you consider your enemies? a couple, but I don't think they know it. Except for one or two.
06. Of scars on your body? a bunch, and I think I have a newly added on on my lower right back ,:)
07. Of things in your past that you regret? hahah a lot

GAH,
I havn't updated in like 10 DAYS,
geesh.

I've been so busy wiht summer school, I've been studying HELLA.

and apparenlty in a 9 day period I'm going to have 6 tests.
SHIT MUDDAFUCKER.
gees.

but right now I'm gettin 77%
and I got 82% on my last test
I'm gettin gbetter.



FUCK FCK FUCK
protect BRANDY.
I want her ot be happy again.
she doesn't deserve shit like that,
not at all.
I want to punch her mom and shit kick her for what she's doing to her famnily.
Her dad met up with her tonight
let's see how things go.


I went paintballing on saturday
got three battlewounds
on my thigh, right arm, and right lower back.
I'm so proud,
but the back one hurts a bit.
ouchy, oh well. :)





peace out
and more to come.


ps JOCE IS GONE, I kind of miss her.

1. You say that I'm your best friend, when have you EVER showed me that? i'm definitely not. You only say that when you want me to keep a secret, and to feel guilty if I break it. FUCK YOU. I always ask you if you want to hang out, when was the last time you asked me to hang out?probably a year ago. Fuck you.

2. You say that we need ot hang out more, you never make any effort. Fuck you.

3. have a good life. RIP.

fuck YOU EVERYONE.

hey, I guess my period IS coming.

what the HELL?? Friends are so lame. So they're at a movie and they didn't even bother to invite, well I guess what's new. :)

SUMMER SCHOOL IS A BIG DRAG.
I'm almost fuckign failing,
and it's such a joke.

I fuckign hate myself,
why am I so fucking lame.



I hate it.














I hate it when people fucking assume everything


or when i did something once, and that they'll think that that's what i'm going to do EVERY TIME then on,


I FUCKIGN HATE THAT.

i want to kill everyone who does that.

it's so lame, fuck.


goddamnit.

I just hate it when I open up to others and they open up to someone else,
it just makes me feel like an asshole, fucking hell.
I'm such a loser.


why do I do that?



I just want people to trust me,
it's not easy for me to trust people,
or maybe I just trust people too easily.



fuck friends,
seems like my period is coming soon.

FUUUUUCKING HELL.


shut up Jessica, you always do that!!
you always get yourselfd in deep arguments and you always make them uncomfortable and fuck.
shit.



summer school starts tomorrow
and I have to go into SIDES
and check it out
for spanish 11

Jessica, your palm reveals you are especially good at Letting your love flow

Our psychologists were able to confirm what palmists have known for centuries: the lines in your palm reveal many things about you — including details about your future.Your palm shows you are a very warm and compassionate person. You give your affection freely to friends and family that you care about most

Jessica, you are most afraid of moving forward

Have you ever noticed that you're more concerned about making the "right" decisions than many people around you when it comes to your future? Or do you sometimes worry more than you should about committing to your personal or professional goals or feel anxious that you'll never really be successful? If so, you're not alone. There are many people who share your fear of moving forward. It can be a real strength to recognize your fears. By being aware of the things that frighten you, you can assess whether fear is helping you or negatively impacting your life. For instance, a fear of moving forward may sometimes motivate you to take action in a positive way, like by experiencing a wider variety of things than others. However, fear's negative aspects can sometimes be more damaging than you realize. Living with fear not only prevents you from living life to the fullest; it can also have a significant negative impact on your energy, health, and your close relationships if not kept in check.

Jessica, the body type you were born with is called Kapha in Ayurvedic medicine.

This means that most likely your bone structure is on the larger side and your metabolism tends to be slow. Your constitution leads us to believe that you are generally both calm and content.

A key component to an Ayurvedic lifestyle is to eat, live and interact with the world according to your natural body type. In relation to eating, Kapha types should be eating foods that taste sweet, sour, or salty. Since you gravitate towards an iceberg lettuce over a salad seaweed salad, we can tell that you're choosing some foods that are best for your Kapha body type.

Jessica, your Sweet Spirit makes you amazing

Have a heart? You certainly do. Thoughtful and warm, you make other people feel at ease and welcome whether you're hosting a party or just attending it. You can't help it — you're a sweetheart who's a great friend to just about everyone.Sincere and kindhearted, you look out for those you love and will often put the needs of others before your own. It's no surprise friends and family look to you for advice and a shoulder to lean on. Helping other people makes you happy. That's the best superpower any hero could have!