it's funny how I could be sitting right bseide my mom, dad, or brother and I could be writing shit in here like I WANT TO FUCKING kill themn or shit like htat.

haha.
-_-"


I want to smoke some weed right now.
I've started smoking q-tips and paper again.
Such a stupid and bad habit.
I want actual cigerettes but I'm too chicken to actually ask for some.
-_-"



I don't want Scott hating me or think I'm some big loser because I don't smoke weed.
I do want to, but I told him I didn't.
I'm so stupid.
:(



gah, maybe I'll straighten things out with him I don't know.
He stopped talking to me right now I told him that I have smokked weed before, eeer.
damn him. I want him. haha.
I'm so desperate it's not even funny.


god, there's this guy Dustin, he's such a cutie, and I want him too.
-_-"
I'm so stupid.
hahahaha