it's been like 10 days since the last time that I've blogged. hahah

it feels like as if it has been more daysm haha.

I've joined CP Art. And I'm doing a painting of Chairman Mao, with his name and other chinese characters in the background.

I've been so stressed lately, and it's not good for my health, it causes placque on my brain, it's pretty lame but whatever. I kind of wish that I hadn't taken psych., cause' it makes me over analyze myself, and most of it is true to me, and it all makes sense. And it's scary.

I think I have CAH, which is when females have an excessive amount of testosterone. Think about it, I'm overly agressive, I'm better hanging out with guys than girls, I like talking to guys more than girls, I'm good at math, I'm good at the visual stuff.

Actually I think I have both a female and male brain. So all in all.. I think I'm.. bisexual. Well I don't think. I know. I've known since grade 5, except that I just havn't accepted it, or even said it, or wrote it down. Cause' it's like the epitamy of my conscience, and I get so scared, and embarassed if anyone finds out.
shit man.

I've said it a couple of times just to say it, not because I meant it or anything, and even now I'm still not "meaning" to say it. I don't mean it, even though it's true.

I just feel really awkward saying shit like that, because I've grown up in a culture who hates gays. I'm Chinese and "Christian". ouch.

but me having a female and male brain is not unehtical, or unlogical. It makes a lot of sense if it is like that. I fight like a mad man, and get emtional like a menopausal woman. It's true.




payce.