I wish I know what I want to do after highschool.
I wish I had ONE successful talent.
I think the only ONE thing that I would consider as talent is hair cutting and styling, and dying.
hair. how pathetic eh? only 10 months of schooling for that. And about 30000 a year, myabe not? I don't know.
I want to be successful. I want to know.
BAND TRIP IN THREE FUCKING DAYS.
I'm so sstoked to be away from here, and to get closer to people. :)
fuck yeah.
though I'm nervous about packing, I always am.
I'm ALWAYS afraid that i'm forget to pack something, or not properly charged something.
whatevvs.
laterrrrrrrrr days?
Monday, March 12, 2007
children of fate in red rover ditches crying out "Mommy come home to me now, because lemonade stands don't cut it for society" so I say...
CHORUS: hold your hand up and drop your lines now because con days and accurate make believes are a failure to future presentation. And maybe someday the lack of success will suffice unlike old men's fables that were once real life stories.
Sisters can't seem to see their father's faces in their recognizable disgrace, as they are becoming of age. So shame spits without skipping a moment while they're having latex love with Trojan men, nothing but fictional see through alibis that reek of violation.
CHORUS
What happened to those baby prodigies of peace in air tight confinement with caked on love like the woman wears in the magazines. Because the concept of old fashion love is way beyond our imagination. Everyone leaning towards motley ambiguity to fornicate. So build up a reptoire of notes that represent of what life is without crappy invitation of tantalizing needs. And let the remarks rolls and go bug eyes for the home cries.
CHORUS
Passing softly spoken romance off as tossing 8 letters that form 3 words around like it means something to them. While last weeks thoughts are this weeks' dream come true. Remember ordinary was yesterday’s today, don't disappear when you hear the sound of shock and despair. Constantly fighting through false hopes like, Lysander said to Hermia "the course of true love never did run smooth" however love is not a word to those of regular needs, but just actions. Just intimate actions that brings an intake of self-indulgence to those around.
CHORUS
Gossip queen forging accuracy, just to satisfy herself of her gift. Friends with the devils tongue and a hell full of other's pride. True covers revealed, like yesterday is gone. Miraculous behaviors changes nothing, but the thoughts of others. Where have we gone? Nowhere, but manipulated, minds altered. Facilitate the open roads to those who deserve the better world, the constrained reality.
CHORUS
CHORUS: hold your hand up and drop your lines now because con days and accurate make believes are a failure to future presentation. And maybe someday the lack of success will suffice unlike old men's fables that were once real life stories.
Sisters can't seem to see their father's faces in their recognizable disgrace, as they are becoming of age. So shame spits without skipping a moment while they're having latex love with Trojan men, nothing but fictional see through alibis that reek of violation.
CHORUS
What happened to those baby prodigies of peace in air tight confinement with caked on love like the woman wears in the magazines. Because the concept of old fashion love is way beyond our imagination. Everyone leaning towards motley ambiguity to fornicate. So build up a reptoire of notes that represent of what life is without crappy invitation of tantalizing needs. And let the remarks rolls and go bug eyes for the home cries.
CHORUS
Passing softly spoken romance off as tossing 8 letters that form 3 words around like it means something to them. While last weeks thoughts are this weeks' dream come true. Remember ordinary was yesterday’s today, don't disappear when you hear the sound of shock and despair. Constantly fighting through false hopes like, Lysander said to Hermia "the course of true love never did run smooth" however love is not a word to those of regular needs, but just actions. Just intimate actions that brings an intake of self-indulgence to those around.
CHORUS
Gossip queen forging accuracy, just to satisfy herself of her gift. Friends with the devils tongue and a hell full of other's pride. True covers revealed, like yesterday is gone. Miraculous behaviors changes nothing, but the thoughts of others. Where have we gone? Nowhere, but manipulated, minds altered. Facilitate the open roads to those who deserve the better world, the constrained reality.
CHORUS
Saturday, March 10, 2007
sometimes I wish I could just turn my back on everyone, or just quickly drop people.
I wish I could find someone who will be there for me 24-7, and just have a best friend.
I hate the people I'm around right now, well like 99.5% of them.
they just annoy the fuck out of me, and they have no support for me what-so-ever, (this is, of course, exlcuding lisa).
shit.
I wish I could find someone who will be there for me 24-7, and just have a best friend.
I hate the people I'm around right now, well like 99.5% of them.
they just annoy the fuck out of me, and they have no support for me what-so-ever, (this is, of course, exlcuding lisa).
shit.
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
The Bull Taurus
The Taurean's characteristics are solidity, practicality, extreme determination and strength of will - no one will ever drive them, but they will willingly and loyally follow a leader they trust. They are stable, balanced, conservative good, law-abiding citizens and lovers of peace, possessing all the best qualities of the bourgeoisie. as they have a sense of material values and physical possessions, respect for property and a horror of falling into debt, they will do everything in their power to maintain the security of the status quo and be somewhat hostile to change.Mentally, they are keen-witted and practical more often than intellectual, but apt to become fixed in their opinions through their preference for following accepted and reliable patterns of experience. Their character is generally dependable, steadfast, prudent, just, firm and unshaken in the face of difficulties. Their vices arise from their virtues, going to extremes on occasion,such as sometimes being too slavish to the conventions they admire.
On rare occasions a Taurean may be obstinately and exasperatingly self-righteous, unoriginal, rigid, ultraconservative, argumentative, querulous bores, stuck in a self-centered rut. They may develop a brooding resentment through nursing a series of injuries received and, whether their characters are positive or negative, they need someone to stroke their egos with a frequent, "Well Done!" Most Taureans are not this extreme though.They are faithful and generous friends with a great capacity for affection, but rarely make friends with anyone outside their social rank, to which they are ordinarily excessively faithful. In the main, they are gentle, even tempered, good natured, modest and slow to anger, disliking quarreling and avoiding ill-feeling. If they are provoked, however, they can explode into violent outbursts of ferocious anger in which they seem to lose all self-control. Equally unexpected are their occasional sallies into humor and exhibitions of fun.Although their physical appearance may belie it, they have a strong aesthetic taste, enjoying art, for which they may have a talent, beauty (womely recoiling from anything sordid or ugly) and music. They may have a strong, sometimes unconventional, religious faith. Allied to their taste for all things beautiful is a love for the good things of life pleasure, comfort, luxury and good food and wine and they may have to resist the temptation to over indulgence, leading to drunkenness, gross sensuality, and covetousness.
No other sign in the zodiac is closer to earth then Taurus. The main objective in leading a Taurean life is primarily (though not entirely) to maintain stability and physical concerns. Your inner spiritual sense longs for earthly harmony and wholesomeness. When you fully understand this, and work toward this end, you will no longer need to blindly reassure yourself with external possessions and comforts. A realization that finding this inner peace will cause all of the above mentioned positive things will overtake you and your life will be very full.
Ultimately the Taurean needs to discover their truest, deepest and highest values. When they know what is truly valuable, they are no longer chained to people and to things that have to do with lesser values. The greatest indication of value to a Taurean is beauty, which cannot be owned, only appreciated.
Traditional Taurus Traits
Patient and reliable
Warmhearted and loving
Persistent and determined
Placid and security loving
Jealous and possessive
Resentful and inflexible
Self-indulgent and greedy
__________________________________________________ _________________
Taurus governs the throat and neck and its subjects need to beware throat infections, goiter and respiratory ailments such as asthma. They are said to be at risk of diseases of the genitals, womb, liver and kidneys, and of abscesses and rheumatism.
LIKES
* Stability
* Being Attracted
* Things Natural
* Time to Ponder
* Comfort and Pleasure
DISLIKES
* Disruption
* Being pushed too hard
* Synthetic or "man made" things
* Being rushed
* Being indoors
As with all sun signs, we all have unique traits to our personalities. When these traits are suppressed, or unrealized, problems will arise. However, with astrology we can examine the problem and assess the proper solution based on the sun sign characteristics. As an Taurean you may see things below that really strike home. Try the solution, you most likely will be amazed at the results. If you find yourself on the receiving end of the negatives below, it is because you are failing to express the positive.
PROBLEM: Having feelings of being used and manipulated, led down the garden path and made a sucker of.
SOLUTION: Realize that your magnetism attracts negative as well as positive influences. You need to choose your friends, not let them choose you.
PROBLEM: Physical things start loosing their appeal, and you feel more and more out of touch with the world around you. You stop caring so much about how much money you have among other physical concerns.
SOLUTION: You are starting to discover an inner harmony that is trying to replace the physical with spiritual. You must let this grow without killing the part of you that provides sustenance for your family.
PROBLEM: Unexplained fear of loss, jealousy and a paranoia that others are out to get you.
SOLUTION: You have within you the ability to not only attract faithfulness, but also the intellect to see what is truly going on around you. You are loosing faith in both of these personal traits. Rebuild that faith.
PROBLEM: Feeling depressed with life. Disgusted and dissatisfied. People around you are little comfort. You feel that life lacks meaning. Easily addicted to physical pleasures.
SOLUTION: Revisit and realize the value of spiritual things in life. Take control of your life by realizing it is not the things in life that are important, but the spirit behind it all.
The Taurean's characteristics are solidity, practicality, extreme determination and strength of will - no one will ever drive them, but they will willingly and loyally follow a leader they trust. They are stable, balanced, conservative good, law-abiding citizens and lovers of peace, possessing all the best qualities of the bourgeoisie. as they have a sense of material values and physical possessions, respect for property and a horror of falling into debt, they will do everything in their power to maintain the security of the status quo and be somewhat hostile to change.Mentally, they are keen-witted and practical more often than intellectual, but apt to become fixed in their opinions through their preference for following accepted and reliable patterns of experience. Their character is generally dependable, steadfast, prudent, just, firm and unshaken in the face of difficulties. Their vices arise from their virtues, going to extremes on occasion,such as sometimes being too slavish to the conventions they admire.
On rare occasions a Taurean may be obstinately and exasperatingly self-righteous, unoriginal, rigid, ultraconservative, argumentative, querulous bores, stuck in a self-centered rut. They may develop a brooding resentment through nursing a series of injuries received and, whether their characters are positive or negative, they need someone to stroke their egos with a frequent, "Well Done!" Most Taureans are not this extreme though.They are faithful and generous friends with a great capacity for affection, but rarely make friends with anyone outside their social rank, to which they are ordinarily excessively faithful. In the main, they are gentle, even tempered, good natured, modest and slow to anger, disliking quarreling and avoiding ill-feeling. If they are provoked, however, they can explode into violent outbursts of ferocious anger in which they seem to lose all self-control. Equally unexpected are their occasional sallies into humor and exhibitions of fun.Although their physical appearance may belie it, they have a strong aesthetic taste, enjoying art, for which they may have a talent, beauty (womely recoiling from anything sordid or ugly) and music. They may have a strong, sometimes unconventional, religious faith. Allied to their taste for all things beautiful is a love for the good things of life pleasure, comfort, luxury and good food and wine and they may have to resist the temptation to over indulgence, leading to drunkenness, gross sensuality, and covetousness.
No other sign in the zodiac is closer to earth then Taurus. The main objective in leading a Taurean life is primarily (though not entirely) to maintain stability and physical concerns. Your inner spiritual sense longs for earthly harmony and wholesomeness. When you fully understand this, and work toward this end, you will no longer need to blindly reassure yourself with external possessions and comforts. A realization that finding this inner peace will cause all of the above mentioned positive things will overtake you and your life will be very full.
Ultimately the Taurean needs to discover their truest, deepest and highest values. When they know what is truly valuable, they are no longer chained to people and to things that have to do with lesser values. The greatest indication of value to a Taurean is beauty, which cannot be owned, only appreciated.
Traditional Taurus Traits
Patient and reliable
Warmhearted and loving
Persistent and determined
Placid and security loving
Jealous and possessive
Resentful and inflexible
Self-indulgent and greedy
__________________________________________________ _________________
Taurus governs the throat and neck and its subjects need to beware throat infections, goiter and respiratory ailments such as asthma. They are said to be at risk of diseases of the genitals, womb, liver and kidneys, and of abscesses and rheumatism.
LIKES
* Stability
* Being Attracted
* Things Natural
* Time to Ponder
* Comfort and Pleasure
DISLIKES
* Disruption
* Being pushed too hard
* Synthetic or "man made" things
* Being rushed
* Being indoors
As with all sun signs, we all have unique traits to our personalities. When these traits are suppressed, or unrealized, problems will arise. However, with astrology we can examine the problem and assess the proper solution based on the sun sign characteristics. As an Taurean you may see things below that really strike home. Try the solution, you most likely will be amazed at the results. If you find yourself on the receiving end of the negatives below, it is because you are failing to express the positive.
PROBLEM: Having feelings of being used and manipulated, led down the garden path and made a sucker of.
SOLUTION: Realize that your magnetism attracts negative as well as positive influences. You need to choose your friends, not let them choose you.
PROBLEM: Physical things start loosing their appeal, and you feel more and more out of touch with the world around you. You stop caring so much about how much money you have among other physical concerns.
SOLUTION: You are starting to discover an inner harmony that is trying to replace the physical with spiritual. You must let this grow without killing the part of you that provides sustenance for your family.
PROBLEM: Unexplained fear of loss, jealousy and a paranoia that others are out to get you.
SOLUTION: You have within you the ability to not only attract faithfulness, but also the intellect to see what is truly going on around you. You are loosing faith in both of these personal traits. Rebuild that faith.
PROBLEM: Feeling depressed with life. Disgusted and dissatisfied. People around you are little comfort. You feel that life lacks meaning. Easily addicted to physical pleasures.
SOLUTION: Revisit and realize the value of spiritual things in life. Take control of your life by realizing it is not the things in life that are important, but the spirit behind it all.
Thursday, March 01, 2007
course selection tomorrow
I'm scared for next year.
I want to do well, but I suck.
and I procrastinate.
and I'm constantly disappointing myself.
Mayeb if I was happier I'd see a change in all of this.
I really don't know if this is the PMS talking or if it's me, but I need new friends.
My "friends" that I have now, really.. if you look at it in a bigger picture, they arn't really friends. More like accquaintanced heading towards friendship, but can't seem to get pass it.
I want to live life. I want to succeed. I want to rub in my self dependence in peoples' face and tell them that I made it on my own.
fuck it.
I'm scared for next year.
I want to do well, but I suck.
and I procrastinate.
and I'm constantly disappointing myself.
Mayeb if I was happier I'd see a change in all of this.
I really don't know if this is the PMS talking or if it's me, but I need new friends.
My "friends" that I have now, really.. if you look at it in a bigger picture, they arn't really friends. More like accquaintanced heading towards friendship, but can't seem to get pass it.
I want to live life. I want to succeed. I want to rub in my self dependence in peoples' face and tell them that I made it on my own.
fuck it.
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