seems like the only thing that I want to talk about is Ross.
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I just want to ask him out.
I think he likes me, and with what Lisa said I can see it now.
I love that kid.


right now I'm downloading my pictures from the band trip.
it's at 129 out of 1098, hahaa and it's 9:13pm. It might quite possibly take about an hour and half or more?
and/or less.


Lisa thinks he likes me because he hugs me first sometimes and he doesn't do that with anyone else, and he always kind of flirts with me, which he rarely does with anyone else. Which I can see, but I don't know.

I think I'm going to make my move at Lisa's birthday party which is soon-ish? like 3 weeks, haha. -_-" But whatevs, it'll give me time.
Hopefully he'll ask me out, but whatever if I need to I'll need to.


I'm just afraid that he's going to say something like "pft, what makes you think that I'll go out with you?" Because he's kind of blunt like that sometimes. Maybe he's afraid that I might do that to him, because we're kind of mean to each other most of the time. I guess it's our way of affection with each other? haha. I don't know. I just want to be with him. It's so cheesy, but yeaaaaaaah. -__-"

I really was hoping to have gone out with Ross by the end of the band trip, but I guess that didn't happen.


he randomly hugged me on the ferry which was kind of shocking at first, then he said "I don't know why I just randomly grabbed you"... I think I said something on the lines of "it's obviously because you can't get enough of me".... haha -_-"

With Ross it's different, it's like we started out always just kind of making fun of each other, and just really comfortable with each other, so I don't get like I usually do with boys that I like. Which is really shy, and like "OMG you exist in my presence, I don't deserve this wonder", and just really distant. That usually only happens once I tell someone who I like, and when they are there it feels like I'm being really cheesy so I just kind of shy away from being affectionate with whom ever I like. But with Ross it feels like it could actually go somewhere, and I don't have a feeling that he likes Joce more than he does with me (which actually happens more than you think). Well, actualyl I was kind of hesitant once I told Lisa, but I got over it.

Lisa told me that she's jealous of how comfortable I am with the guys, and just guys in general. That's only because I'm usually one of the guys, then the girl who's in love with the guys.


I dont' know.


I hope something happens. And I hope he makes the first move......