fuck it just feels good to yell at people.

and it just feels good to cry

is that sucha b igi dela?!


is it okay to not want to do something for my birthdya this year?

I'm not in a mood to celebrate anything.

i feel like crap, and I just want to cry all the time and I don't know why.


well actually I do, but it's always the same damn reason, and I just can't get by it.
It just fuckign hurts.



is it okay to make things heated all the time, and just make a big deal about some things.

I just can't take condescending bluntness from kyle garvey sometimes, I just want to fuckign punch him in the face.

he's so fuckign demeaning, and acts like a fuckign knwo it all, and I just want him to shut the fuck up. jsut fucking beat him up, fuck.




my self-esteem is pretty low as it is, and fuck it.




this birthday is one big obligation. I actually don't want to do anything, but what3ever

what I want to do is just go out for dinner with a couple of friends, but since a lot of people have been pressing on about the damn sleepover I feel obligated to have one.


caus'e ti's not as sentimental anymore.

like I"M actually not that good of friends with most of the people I will be inviting to it, and it whomps when that happens.

it's just fuckign stupid.


and to be honest, I never really have as much fun as most people do.

-__-"


mayeb I'm just one big attention seeker looking to have the light shawn on them every moment.



but wahteve.s


truth be told, i wish I could spend my birthday with ross, and/or graham.

that's all I really want.