fuck, what do I need to do to get to him?

fuckign jump him?



like I think it's kind of obvious.. of all the attention I give him, and don't give him.

I think ti's obvious how I act around him.

fuck.


I don't like graham, nor would I go out with him if he asked me out.

I think.



Shit, I jsut want to call him up and ask him out. But that's silly, and he would be like "FUCK OFF" but not really.
shiit.
why am I such a little girl about it? Like fuck... it just makes me smile so much even thinking about him.

firckk.
Why can't I ever dream of him?

it's liek it's nto meant to be. But whenever it's just him and I, it's like a sign that it should be us.




fuckckk.,.. I'm fucking sick. shit.
God, I don't even know what I find in that kid. He like makes me feel SO embarassed half the time I'm near him. But he would make the effort to come nad talk to me sometimes, and ti's cute when he does. It makes me feel good inside, haha.
it's like for every 10 BAD things he does to me..he'll make me forget all about it with just one good thing.




so it's official. I like smoking more than drinking. Drinking doesn't give me a positive effect.