fuccck, I want to loose at least 20 pounds, and tone my body.

I want to be healthy, and maybe not so embarassed anymore.

I don't want to be stuck in this weight gain experience that I seem to be having since ever.

I fucking binge, and want to fucking die right after I do it. I don't want to feel like this anymore, nor do I want to binge.

I just want to lose some weight for once.

I'm just scared, and fucking embarassed.

I finally learnt how to appreciate myself, and now I"m back in the fucking rut that I've always been in.