nevermind about him flirting.

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salt shakes and butterlicks

j-rhyme l-crime

of all the so call let downs that I've been having, and or creating?!

I'm excited for my PAINTING. It's going to extinguish some of this fuss that I've been accumulating.

So I blazed last night with maery, joce, phoebe, and devon.. btu i didn't get that high. I wish I did, and I wanted more..

so hopefully tomorrow would go better than last night.

I don't know why everyone thinks I'm such a good two shoes, not saying that I"m rebellious as hell, but yeah.

I just want to get high and enjoy the fuck out of it.




false accuracies is waht we aim at.
church on sundays, smiles at special dinners.
Like we have perfect lives,


push push and I go away,


it's too late.

why do I always seem like the parent.

fucking at your age.
fucign repression, and fuckign opression beating me down.

fucking hate hiding shit

fucking hate hating you.

not really.




aslffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff


I NEED LOVE. I need attention.


I'm vulnerable for a good friend.

I'm such a push over fora best friend, seriously.
Someone who woud hang out with me everyday, and someone who I can trust. I don't know if it's my subconscious pushing them away, or if I just choose really bad friends?

cause' my friends don't last very long.

I suck at keeping friends, I make no effort what so ever. I love being wanted. I hate feeling used, and that's what it feel slike most of the time.

I'm fucked for life, and it makes me scared for life.

I'm going to have such bad problems trying to find a man.

I fucking over analyze EVERYTHING, to fuckign death, and till' I fucking can't stnad anything.

I over exaggerate and that fucks me up.

seems like everyone has a best friend but me.

I just feel so clingy sometimes, and that's when I feel like I need to give them space, which ends up with me becoming really distant with them.

I have problems with comittment, and attachment, and people breaking down my barrier.

I don't know what happened to me to make me this way.

actually, never.
I think it's my mom. I can't trust her with shit.

and I think over the yeras it's made me develope something that makes me not be able to trust anyone else.

that or I've over exaggerated a situation and made myself not trust anyone.

soemtimes I just get so depressed about friends.

fuck. I'm hopeless. I feel so fucking unpretty sometimes.

I feel so fucking undesirable, pretty much all the time.



adf





dhhfhriiskksksjfjdj I nEED sleep,