fuck,
I'm becoming such a lil' stoner. like actually. fuuck, I actually bought a pipe yesturday.

I called in sick for work, becasue they're making me work too much, and I went out and bought a pipe with Michelle and Kelsey. And kelsey bought Michelle a bong for her birthday.
Then we went to mayfair and chilled there for a bit, then I drove them back downtown, and I went home casue' I had to go out for my grandma's 2nd brithdya dinner. Then after that I called michelle up again, and went to her house, from there we went to northridge school and broke in our new implements of smoking crhon, haha.

I was fucked. I still have half a bowl from that night left. And tonight Ryan, Michelle, Kelsey, ryan, and I went to ryan's house and they somoked hash and chron. And I smoked a little bit of hash without knowing. But I didn't feel it because I didn't smoke too much of it. But man, I don't know.

I'm smoking too much weed.

and fucking hash?! who am I?

and michelle got ryan to give me a nug for a ride to his house, haha.

so I got enough for a packed bowl :)


and the other week I fucking hot boxed my car with Michelle. It was sketched, because I drove home afterwards, luckily it wasn't too far from my house. I'm so thankful for having Michelle live so close to me. Free chron, for a ride.

fuck I don't want to be labeled as a fucking stoner, but that's what I'm becoming :. I havn't smoked at least once a week, for like over a month. Sometimes I smoke like three times a week, that's so bad. fuck.

but I want to lose weight! and this is kind of helping?

I don't know. I want to try hash again, and more of it some other day.

I want to get high with Joe and them, I miss hanging out with them, fuck. I miss those guys. I wish Joe still lived in town.

Fuck langford. seriuosly.


and my dad is being a pyscho, fuck. I told my mom if she ever needs a ride home she can call me.

Like the other day dad and her went up to langford to get the car tires' replaced, and when they were waiting they walked around and apparently he just fucking flipped out on her the whole time they were walking around, like on the street and everything like full out screaming, what a fucking pussy eh? and like he would try to run away from her, or to get away, and she would straggle along and try to keep up with him, but he would just throw rocks or like weeds at her or towards the ground, and he would threaten to get a divorce with her. He's so fucking controlling, and I aint' having. Sometimes I feel like I"m being such a bitch towards him, but then most of the tiime I realize he fucking deserves it. He doesn't deserve any kind of love from me, if he's treating my mom like that. Like fuck him seriously. what a fucking girl, eh?


shit, I want to get fucked. And also I asked Ross if he could take me to the thrifty's christmas party, and he said that he might be quitting, but he also never said no! So, he would have if he's not quitting. But right now I'm trying to convince him to not quit yet! cause' there's only a month until the party, and I"m actually willing to like miss then emily carr portfolio day for it! werrd.


but fuck, I really hope that he would take me! or else, I'm forced to go to thrifty's everyday and make someone take me! Becasue I'm not going to the winners christmas party, cause' it's lame ass. Anfd it's going to be all langford kids.

-_0"

but fuck, mike is an asshole, fuck him. seriously. He's definitely lost some major cool points with me.

I asked him if he would take me to the christmas party and he's like.. "uhh... yeahh...." like sarcastily, like seriuoly FUCK YOU, grow up it's not like we're going to be going out after that or shit, fuck. seriuosly.


i'm going to peace this, and do some homewokr?

later