"i don't think so. not at all. if you talked to him about it, you'd know what i mean. he wouldn't want to date you if you were the love of his life at this point. he has dug hmiself into the pit of despair, relationship wise. mentally, that is."



i don'tk now what to think anymore.
i don't knw. I want to ask him out.. but fck..I'm scared as fuck about rejection. I take it seriuosly, and personally. really personally.


i need to do things like that over MSN or the phone, but that's just the pussy way out of facing reality.


fuck. I don't know what to do.
phoebe says that I shuld be really friendly with him. But i donl't know how to be any more friendlier, other than jumping on him and making out with him.


I'm scared shitless right now as well. But I don't know what to do. I honestly think, to him, it should be obviuos that I like him.

I just wnat to hangout with him, but I wouldn't know what todo that isn't date like.

i feel like screaming.
i want to go on a run. I want to run away, and be happy with someone who will fuking grow some fckng balls.

i'm sick of me always choosing the wrong guys.
I'm sick of me liking every single guy at least once.

but for the second time in my life that I actually think that this could have gone somewhere, i sucks.

this whomps big time.