ifeel like i have nothing going for me, at all.

i feel like i don't have the support under me.

i'm scared to move on.

i'm scared of the thought that I migh be alonefor the rest of my life.

i'm scaed that I hae nthing good left for me.

i don't even know what to do anymore.
Michelle would be the one that I would call up and talk to when i have a problem, and i've grown such an attachment to that way of living.

but idon't have that anyhmore.
it's jsut back to me bottling it up again.

it's like she broke me down, but now i'm left like this.


all i ever want to do is just cry. and for her to be home right now. i want to be selfish, and have her here.

fuck.

i miss her so much.
i don't want to be fcking alone.

fuck. this sucks so much.