almost at 600.

soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo there's this really hot black guy in my accounting class, and I have his phone number, ha!

i'm pretty much just blushing right now as i'm typing this.

I called Alyssa when I was leaving school because I as wondering where she was. and she was with ashley so ashley came and met up with me, and I was trying to light my bullseye but my lighter wouldn't work so I asked her if she had a light, and she's like "hold on" then she grabs it from me walks up the stairs and asks the black guy (koly) and a white guy (zeph)for a light. s they gave her one, and they started talking so I walk up the stairs and joined in. And after that zeph guy left, and it was just koly, ashley and i, and we're just standing there talking.

and she asks him if he blazes and obviously he does, who doesn't? haha.

but yeah she's like take his number down, so now i have his umber and he has mine.

today, ashley came over at like 2 an we did homework until like 6 and after dinner she tried to find numbers for us to buy off of and so she called koly because he said that he lives close to people that sells and their shit is good. but he never picked up his phone.

at 11:20pm-ish he called me back and i wa like "uhh... yeah this is Jessica. Ashley tried calling you earlier." haha.

and I as fucking blushing, and it was awkward cause' my brother picked up, haha.

but yeah, fuck he's hot, and he's like "well then I guess I'll see you in the morning then" aww yeee. hahahah

soooooooo i'm sick of kayla calling me to tell me about eveery aspec o michle's life. i dn't care.

fuck man i don't knw what to do.
ihatethe circe of friends ihave rght now

i justwant to move away. fuck this FUCK YOU BOGGER.COM.
i want to move away. i want to start all over. fuck.

i just hate my life rgtnw. kjhasdfjkasdflsadfh and i fucking hate thi site.

i don't wantto b here anymore i'm so done.
i'm done. i have never been so okay with dying before. i can't eve imagine my life 10 yers from nw.
i am sounhappy.
i am so agigtated, s anxious. so fuking everything. i have nothing to live for. iam not excellnt atnyting.

i hate beng in one spot al thetime,. i'msick o crying for the same reasosall th time. i'mfed up.

thi was'tmy year t g back to scool. i needed a break. i really need a break.

i'm pretty i'm going to tak a year offafter this year.
maybe not,fuck.
i hatebeing in a fcing dilemma.





fuck m life.

college is not how i imagind tto be.
im nt motivated to ak any new friends bcause non of them seem friend worthy to me.

whatevs

i ust want tobe out ad working. fuc this laptop and t's fuckingkeyboard.
fuuuuuck.
i don't know what to do.

i'msick of pople rigtnw.

i'vehadmy phoneoff for the past two days,and it's so liberating.
sooo fuc this keyboard, or fuckthi site. fuuuck,

i'm so sick of being stuck in this drama all the time. it's so fucking draining. How can you tell someone you care about so much that they're a fucking dumbass.

how can you tell someone who needs you so much to fuck off??

Michellefuck,man.

I get so fed up with her sometimes. She's such a child. I don't want to hear any more shit about her and fucking dexter.

she keeps asking me for fucking advise, but she doesn't listen. she doesn't. but she'll deny it.

i' fed up. I do so much shit for her.

it's like a fucking slap in the face wen she does shit like this. i'm sick ofalways trying to do shit for people but just end up getting slapped back.


its disrespectful to the fullest extent. it's frsutrating, and ti's not fair.

how can i care for someone who doesn't listen.

how can i take her seriously when she two-face herself. fuck.

fuck man
i'm getting my period soonnnnnnnnnnnnn. it's just this moood that i get into.

but mihelle and i are going to the gym hopefully soon!
i need to work out. I'm ick of being a big lard.

i hate school. It gives me such bad anxiety.
i feel like crying and just not showing up for classes.

i hate english, it's so intimidating. i hate peer editing, and in front of class anything.
i hate my group.
i my how i am lately
just smoking weed everyday, and not getting enough sleep and not studying like i should.

fuck maryjane man.

i just want to fucking cry. I want to take up boxing lessons or some kind of fighting whatever. i need have better time management, and stop blazing so much. save it for the weekend.



frick.

saw BSB on friday with Nicole R.

it was amazing. I wish I couldt ell you about it right now, but I'm being too stubborn and frustratd to tell you.

fuck i'm fucking angry right now.

i just want to be out and about.. but I'm too worried thikningabout school .






fuck my life.
fuck this.

fuuuuuuuckkkkk

i just want o fuckng scream, and dfucking beat shit up.

I must have fucking fat fingers ro something, cause' I seem to be hitting a lot of extra keys.














































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fuck my life.

I am so sick of having to call in to change my fuckign cellphone plan!
what the fuck is having a fuckign cellphone store for?!
why do i AND the people at the fucking stores need to chaneg it through the phone!


I don't get it.

It's fuckign frustrating having to keep calling them back every week and be put on hold for fucking 45 mintues ad then be told that i coudn't change my plan at thta time because of somehting.

I've been tryiing forabout a fucking month right now

the first time i went to the store to get it changed, and tey had to call in and we wated for about 30 minutes and so decided to go home and do it there.

i waited 5 days before i called but i did, it was 3am.. and they told me that their system was down and told me to call back in 20 mintus and i did nd was on hold for a good 30 minutes, then they told me that I couldn't change it cause' I wasn't my mom and i wasn't authorize to do it, FUCK YOU.

so then i called back.. but they had sent me to the wrong place and was put on hold for another 30 mintutes WOO HOO


so i ended that one pretty fast


called back and pretended to be my mom.. buuuuuut they couldn't change it cause' we had to call back at the end of my montly cycle.



so i called back to day adn was put on hold for however long


thhhhhhhhhhhens he tells me taht i couldn't cause i'm on some fucked corporate shit and it was close today but call back tomorrow

and fuck shit and shit.


and right now I feel as thoguh I'm developing probably some kind of ulcer from being so fuking frustrated.


I'm really reasonable wen it comes to store policies and understand that it's not the person who's delievering me the bad news' fault.. but it IS their FAULT when they don't tell me everything fromt he beginning.


it's fuckign frustratng to have to keep calling back and be put on fuckign hold for god knows how long.

i'm ALSO sick of people havng ucking cellphones but never have it on them or never having it on.


orrrrrrrrr when they do have them on it's on fuckign vibrate.

i just want to break every phone in the fuckign houserigh tnow.

our phones fucking suck, and I'm uckign fed up


I just want to beat shit up.
I fuckign hate this keyboard, it's fuckgi slow as fuck.


PS i think that i might hve mono.





































fuck rogers, and fuck them for fuckign screwing around with me.

michelle is coming home on friday.
i don't knowwwwwww what to think about it.
i'm starting school tomorrow /today.
I'm nervous anxious, scared?

'm hopeing it's going to be okay, and I'm hoping that it's not going to be regular timing for classes. or else I'm going to be there for a ridiculously long tme. -_-"

aiiiiiih.

i really want a second tattooo but I don't know what to get. I want to get more animals but really animals don't mean much to me.

i want it to say something but i don't know what of.





werrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrd.