all i ask for is just one companion. somehow i wont find irritable flaws in.

maybe it's just how i am. maybe it's how i operate.
I find a companionship within someone, but then i drop them cause' they're getting too close. I find there flaws, and pick away at it. mayeb thats my down=fall.

which, makes me so fearful of the future.


i hate who i am, or maybe it's just who i've become.

i don't want to just exist. i want to have somehting to live for, i want to have a reason to wake up in the morning.

i don't want to dread life. i don't want to be unhappy anymore. idon't want to stress, and i just want things to be sorted out.

i don't want to be doing things taht I doin't want to do anymore.


i want to take a break. I want to just figure things out. I need to deal with somethings first.

i need to stop holding on to dead weight. I need to stop trying to make things work that arn't going to work.


i want to be gone. i want to move away. i wish i had a job right wo, or else i would have,.
this whole IBC thing is teaching to be a manager.

i wish life was stress-free, and maybe then I could not be worrying about developig an ulcer every day of my life.