im' so sick of helping poeple out and get nothing in return.

i know that itshouldn't be like that, but it has come down to the point where it is.


i'm sick of giving and not getting.

i don't care how selfish it is, but when HAS IT EVER BEEN ABOUT ME?!

exaclty.

i'm obviusly not feeling liek this because i'm about to get my period. because it's been like this for a while now, and i don't know what to say.

I wish i could be a bit more appeasing, but I can't. Not anymore. I'm sick of being in this rut. I'm sick of getting walked all over. I've had enough, I'm done. I don't care if I'm a bitch. I don't care i I'm unpeasant to be around, but I honestly justdon't care anymore. if this is howthey treat me this is how i'm going to treat them, and I don't FUCKIGN CARE.

I do'nt want to care anymnore. I'm so done. I'm out. I'm donnnnnnnne. fuck.

im' sick of always ahving to bring this up, i'msick of always just talk and nothing to show.

i'm done. I'm so done. I don't care how destructive that I am beng wiht m ybody, but this is how it's going to have to be until everything is going to be settled down, which probably wont be until a while from now.


I'm sick of being "content". I'm outtttttie.

i flaked out on joce and them alst night. felt kind of bad cause' ti was for alan's birthday, but kind of good cause' i didn't want to go anyways.


yeaaaaah. I know i know two wrongs don't make a right, but it sure does make me feel good.


maybe i'm already going throug my mid-life crisis or something. I'm so grumpy. I'm so agitated all the time. I'm never happpy.