for some reason, i'm falling head over heels for him.

he has me, he really does.
but i don't really know. I don't know what our deal is. We hang out quite frequently, and when we don't hang out we text. He always asks me what i'm doing, annd always invites me over to his house- to blaze, obviuosly. haha

I wish we cuddled though, haha. :$

frick, I want to sleepover at his house again. I want this to progress.. but I don't want to just jump into things, and fuck him. I want it to start slow, I want him to mean it. I don't want t be just another girl, I'm not okay with that.

Well, he does want to go on a road tri.. and I'm pretty sure he watned to go this winter.. but I don't know.
I'm pretty freaked about driving in the snow, soooooo.
yeaaah.

Frick I want him, and I loooooooooooooooooove the amoutn of attentiont hat he is giving me. Like he always calls me to hang out, or this past weekend, I hadn't talked to him since fiday.. and he texted me on sunday night asking me how my weekend was, it was cute.

and he was like "do you have an exam tomorrow?"

and the day after he texted me "when does your exam end?"

and he wanted to hang out... but then he forgot about me, haha which makes me think hat he's not interested. I think i'm just overthinking this.

I don't think he's interested, I think he's just acting the way he would with anyone else.. cause' I don't really act ike I like him, except for that fact that I always hang out with him, and always drive him places.

but really, I don't think that I act that interested.. which sucks for me, but i don't really know how to act.. I'm oblivious when it comes to boys. I'm clueless, to say the least.

for some reason, I just can't act like I'm interested.. I feel like I'll dumb myself down if I act all flirsty and stuff. But I want to be able to, for some reason I just can't give myself away like that. I would act like that if I know for sure he's interested.. but I don't know.. I don't want him to know.. for some reason I never want them to know.