fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. i don't want o settle for something that i don't totally want.

and i don't know if Jesse is that for me. He's way too assertive. but he's so damn charming.

my texts with him:
me: "econ is in room CBA286"
him: "thanks"
him:"so i still feel prety scumlike will you smoke one with me after school?"
me: "that sucks. i'm sorry that you feel that way. and yeah i'll blaze with you"
him: "your such a sweetheart are you finshed at 320?"
me: "it's what i've come to the conclusion of. That i'm meant to be here jsut to be the best of a friend that i can be. And yeah I'm off at 320. "
him: "your awesome i try to be the best i can but i am definitely not as awesome as you"
me: "hah thanks"


DEC 22,2008
him: "yo, what are you saying?"
him: "nothing i'm guessing?"
me: "hello, you would just assume that. I'm just on the bus right now. Sorry I guess my jesse radar didn't go off.
him: "haha where are you going?"
me: "home. what are you up to?"
him: "on the bus going home you still couldn't drive?"
me: "i crashed at kay quan's last night"
him: "sweet what did you two get up to?"
me: "we walked to wal-mart from tillicum. from there we bussed to her hopuse and watched a couple of movies. Today, we went downtown and she bought gloves for the homeless."
him: "well that sounds wholesome. Wanna come over and smoke some weed with me?"
me: "I would love to. but i just got home and there's some things i gotta do first, so i wont be able to come until a bit later"


nov 23,2008
him: "yo are you up?"
me: "i am now, what' sup?"
him: "i just woke up put on some ratat picked up the half full pipe next to my bed was thinking about last night and wanted to talk to someone i would incite you for breakfast/tea but i think i am gonna go to work for 11"

Dec 21, 2008
me: "morning sunshine."
him: "hey babe"