i am well
i am good.

life has been good.

michelle and i went to the gym today for like an hour, but it was good.
we went on a long ass walk before though, a 2 hour walk. we walked up to christms hill, then back down, to quadra.


i feel soooooo good right now.

i just want to keep on working out.

ultimately, i would like to stop smoking.. but not right now. I know i know.. it's never the right time.. but i don't feel like it's the right time for me, right now. i don't know.. we'll find out.


i want this to work out.

i want to lose a pant size or two.

i want to be skinnier, and i want to get noticed, and get yellled at? i don' tknow.


i want to look good, and i want to feel good about myself.
i want to stop worrying about showng off my stomach, or my thihghs, or just something, i dont 'know.

i don't want to be self consciuos anymore. i'm tired of feeling uncomfortable in my own skin, i know it's a played out line, but it's how i feel: uncomfortable.


i also, ultimately, want to slow down my blazing... even though it's at it's peak right now.



i always say that if I wanted to stop, i could... i really feel like I can' anymore.

;like i've gone too far. like i've take so much of an advantage of it that I just an't change.


I know i'm fucking up with schooool, but I really don't care.. butI guess that that's because I'm not the one paying for it.. but I think even if I was paying for it.. i would be doing the same thing.



I just need to be out of this city.
as soon as school is done I want to DRIIIIIIIIVE.

and as soong as June hits, I'm running away. haha.. well driving away.

I want to peace this city, and this province.. or probably just explore this province.. I dont' know.