my saturday night was goood. ahaha

did methylone, annnd gooot fuckkkkkkked.

had one big cuddle puddle with scott and justin on justin's couch.

fuck it was amazing, haha.

I'm scared that i'm going to be a gypsy for the rest of my life with this constant need of change.


i'm scared that i'm never going to find someone or somewhere to settle down, and these fears tend to hold me back from doing what i want to do.

i always need a push.

i dont'k now.

i'm scared of not being in control, and just not knowing scares me.

but i always know that i can move back with ym parentsd until i can get on my own feet again.

PYSCHOLOGICAL TEST

Here is the analysis:

You are easy going and carefree.
How ambitious you are depends on the height that you answered, which is: MIDDLE.
You try to please everyone, the size of this personality as seen by others is medium.
Glass means fragile personality.
You are also down-to-earth.
You are an opportunist.
Your best friend is the one you need when you are in trouble.

5 Q PERSONALITY TEST

Here is the analysis:

Your ideal mate has a sense of humor and is lively.
Most of your plan would be successful. When you wish, you make a reasonable wish.
No effort, no success. That's your attitudes towards success.
You think that if you like what you are and have, then no matter what, you will always be happy.
You are emotional, sincere and optimistic.

WHAT TYPE OF PERSONALITY DO IHAVE

Kind and Gentle
Your kindness is your charm - you are also gentle and sweet. Everybody likes to be around people with your personality. Like a psychologist, people like to talk to you to discuss their problems because you are proper and discrete, as well as confident. You look mature and people respect you. People with this kind of character are few and far between.

"THE REAL ME

Here is the analysis:

You are a very serious person. You tend to be quiet and well behaved, and you don't have a great deal of self-confidence. You prefer to be alone rather than with friends and that could make you a little less interesting to certain types of guys. You are very attractive in an individual kind of way, and this means it can take people a little while to get to like you.

You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.

You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.

Guys see you as being a thinker and a careful person. They will be really attracted to this quality in you, but you need to learn to speak your mind, otherwise people will find you too shy and quiet. Learn to relax and lighten up--it's okay to have fun sometimes. When you learn to develop your fun-loving side, guys are going to flock to your side.

Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

WHAT'S ON MY MIND
Here is the analysis:

You think money and love are equally important. You have an interest in many things in life, and work hard to ensure that you maintain a healthy balance between work, play and love. However, you tend to be unable to decide on what you really want to do with your life. You wouldn't dream of leaving your loved one for one or two million dollars, but you would have to reconsider if the offer rose to 100 million dollars.

I don't know what to do. I'm getting so restless. it's this played out game that never ends with me. I'm a gypsy. I just constantly need change. I get too adjusted too easily.

I need change of setting, and change of people. For some reason, I just can't let people help me. Slash, i just can't find anyone that I really trust to help me.

I'm self dependent and self reliant. I'm my own psychologist. and it sucks. cause' it's just one opinion, and it's my own.

I dont really know yet. I'm thinking about staying until i get my license back, then go to winnipeg for a bit, to stay with michelle, thenn head over to nova scotia to stay with phoebe and them for a bit until i find my own place.

thennn go to hair school, and get a job afterwards.

thennn i want to travel and work at the same time.

and since cutting hair is pretty universal, i don't think it'd be THAT hard, but i guess it's probably easier said then done.

and probably language barriers are difficult to deal with at times.




I'm just getting realllllllllly bitter. and it's no fun. I hate myself for being like this, but i'm exhausted, and no one is making this easier for me.

it just feels like i have no respect around here, and just get treated like some rug.

stepped on, and stepped on.

I don't know. i'm just really done with selfish people, and for once, i really need to think about myself.

i don't know if i want to leave with my parents, i reallllllly want to. but i don't know if i'll regret it or not.

i'm scared that i will.

i'm scared that i'll have to come back to this place cause no where else will have me.

i'm pathetic when it comes to interviews and getting jobs.




RINGS ON fINGER
Forefinger

You are quitely confident and very responsible. You like to lead and can appear to be quite tough on the surface, but underneath is a gentle and sensitive character that enjoys the finer things of life.