i dont get it. why is it so hard for me to let people love me?

no scratch that. Why is it that I feel like no one wants to put the time and effort to love me? or at least listen to me. :(

i'm soooooo sick of this. I'm so sick of this feeling. This continuous feeling of wanting to just fuck it and peace. I used to be a fighter. I used to be strong. Now I'm just a pussy not wanting to deal with her own problems. I let things get in the way.